I am holding on to my Faith it will get me through..

My Dear Friends,
At times like this things can change so many times and you never know what the next bit of news will be.
Tonight my Daughter Cheri, Son Tony and Granddaughter Allison (Cheri's Oldest) came here. I knew right away I wasn't going to want to hear what they were going to tell me.

Late this afternoon Mom's heart Surgeon called in the doctors he wanted to do the CT scan and EEG on my Mom' brain. I had thought they were going to wait a few days, not that it matters..
The test showed that only my Mom's deep brain was undamaged and large portion was dark and couldn't be seen and the brain waves confirmed what the CT scan was showing.

My heart is breaking into so many pieces but I also know that Time will allow it to slowly heal. I also believe with all that I am that Our Lord is watching over all those I love & care about, this includes each of you.

Right now I am so grateful that I always took the time to tell Mom that I loved her and what a Blessing she has always been to me.

I made my peace with my Mother many years ago and was able to move beyond the past. These past years I have been able to show her in as many ways as possible that she was loved and cared for, at least in my heart I know I did the best I could.

I want to thank each of you so much for all your Prayers. None of them were ever in vain. Our Lord hears all Prayers and answers each of them in His own way. For me I found over the years it is best not to ask why? for there is No answer to that question. Every thing in His Time and in His Way. I feel Him watching over me and know I am not alone.

Right now every one has to take care of themselves, I can do Nothing for them...I can only Pray for them to find peace and to try and be good to one other, which I am sure they will do.

I am very worried about my brother Dale, he has his last radiation treatment this coming Friday, I don't think he should fly out here his system is so weaken from the treatments he has been taking for the cancer. I know it is so hard for him to be so far away... BUT.... sometimes there just aren't any easy answers. Is There.

Please continue to Pray for my Mom that her heart and soul will be at peace and that she suffers no more pain. This is my Prayer for her.

Again I thank all of you for your kindness and for being there for me, I love you all so much and am sending you each gentle Hugs daily {{{{{{~!~}}}}}}}} DJ

[poorkid]

DJ-
How wonderful are you to still think of all of us when you are hurting.  What a kind and generous soul you are!

My prayers are certainly with you and your family.  

We love you!

[HVAC]

DJ I am so sorry. I lost my father 12 years ago, my sister 6 years ago, and my mother 3 years ago. It is never easy. I know this is hard on you. I am praying for you.

Alex

[Janette2836]

DJ
I am so glad that you have been able to spend the "quality" time with your mom the past few years.  That combined with knowing that she is in God's hands has to make things a bit better.  Keep holding to that my dear friend!

Headed to pray for you & your entire family right now!

Hugs to you
Janette

[shermay]

My Dereast DJ,

He is carrying you right now, there's one set of prints there, and as for me?  I'm calling you right now!!!

Always here for you, as you are always here for us too,

Debs xxxxxxxxx

[Tammy826]

I am so sorry!!  I wish somehow I could ease your pain but all I can do is pray for you & be a shoulder for you! Please know I am lifting you up in prayer!! Sometimes we don't understand why bad things happen to good people & I am bad about questioning God as to why. We might not know the reasons now but just hang on!!!Keep the faith!!! I know someday we will meet in heaven & I'm sure though we have never met face to face, I know we will know each other!! Just think we willl dance , run, play & no pain!!!! Please hold on to that hope !! I pray God wraps His arms around you & gives you comfort, calm , & peace! I love you & I'm here when you need me!!

[doni54]

Hi DJ,

This is really sad news and my heart is with you, sweet friend.  Our mothers are just so special and it's hard to think of them not being here.

I pray for you to have peace, DJ, and from your post it sounds as though you do.  You are a very special lady, with a heart as big as the sky.  I know that big heart is a little shattered right now, but I pray it will heal soon.

All my prayers and love are with you, just lean on all of us here and we will do our best to help you through this sad time.

Love & hugs
doni

[michelleric]

There is nothing like a mothers unconditional love. I am so sorry for this sad news, and want you to know that my heart, thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at the moment.

It is such a hard thing you are going through right now. and I am so glad you are able to be here and let us know what is going on.

I am sending you big hugs and a shoulder to lean on right now,

With understanding,
Michelle

[PastorDan]

Hope this link works, and that you can see this performance of a beautiful song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jwUZBUvclac

God bless you, dear friend.

[Erin0313]

DJ,

  I am sorry that the news was bad and that your family is suffering. I have tears in my eyes thinking of what it would feel like.

  I am glad that you were able to make peace with your Mom and move beyond the past. It really is a gift to make peace and show your love before it is too late. No regrets is a beautiful thing.

Your faith sounds strong and beautiful and I know that it will get you through.

Take care of yourself and get lots of rest through this sad and difficult time.

Hugs,
Erin

[Heather3418]

I will never stop praying, even with the recent news.  Oh sweet precious woman, I weep with you, but will not ask God why this is happening.  I know that he is in control.  I do ask that God and his angels wrap there arms around you and give you peace and comfort.  I also ask these things for youf mother.

Pastor Dan...the utube video you posted was absolutely beautiful.  I will continue to listen to it throughout the day, to give me strength.  I hope all of our members listen to it also.  It's beautiful.  Thank you.

God Bless you DJ and most of all, God Bless your momma.

With great tears,
Heather

[goofysmom1]

I am so sorry to hear this news about your Mother - I will continue to pray for you, your Mother and your family.

Sending you hugs of support,
Chrisy

[Janette2836]

Pastor Dan's post reminded me about my dad's favorite song that brought him & us much comfort when he was sick with cancer.

http://vodpod.com/watch/1437051-il-divo-amazing-grace-rus-on-vimeo-video

If this does not pass the screening then it is Amazing Grace sung by IL Divo

It is "amazing"

Lots of love your way!

Janette

[rendean]

I am sorry to hear of the sad news regarding your mother. Wishing you peace and comfort at this difficult time.  

If you have the opportunity to watch the videos posted by Pastor Dan and Janette you will find another source of comfort in these beautiful songs.

Sending hugs,
Ren

[deborah0904]

I am so sorry to hear your news and I am praying for you.  You have a strong faith in God and I know it will see you through this time.

Love,
Deborah

[kmil1999]

I can't say anything more eloquent than what everyone has all ready said.

Just wanted to let you know my best thoughts are with you and your family.

Gentle hugs and prayers,
Karen

[green924]

Thoughts, Prayers, & Hugs  :..)

Melanie

[mokibear]

Dearest Heart, here you are going through so much and yet found time to comfort me. You truly are an exceptional woman. My thoughts and prayers are with you dear lady and with your Mom. I do know how you are feeling and wish I could find words of comfort for you but I'm at a loss. Just always remember that your forum family is here for you.

Hugs
Moki

[Wobbly]

My dear, my heart weeps with you and my prayers are with you and your family.  One thing to hold on to is that you have spent time with your Mom and she knows how much you love her.  

take care dear and know that we are all here for you.

Hugs from all

Wobbly

[Lulu54]

DJ,
You know we will always be here for you - please stop and take a moment to feel all of the love being sent to you from your forum family.  

Take care of yourself - your mom would want you to do that !

lots of love,
L

[LLWB]

Dear Obe. As Jesus said "I go to prepare a place for you. Where I am, there you will be also" He has his place prepared for your mother, and for you also, and there you will be together, rejoicing with each other and His angels. We are never alone, for He is with us always.

(((((((((hugs))))))))
Love
Maggie

[Mand125]

Dear DJ
I am so sorry for what you are going through at this time and my thoughts are with you.

I know that your faith will see you through, from your recent post it sounds as though your Mother is at peace.

Lots of love
Mand

[Fluffysmom]

What more can be said? My prayers are still being sent (adding a special one for Dale), wishing the same for your Mother that you do.  I'm also wishing and hoping for strenghth for you, to take care of yourself while getting through this difficult time.

Much love,

Kathy