I wish..

[Inny2009]

I wish we had a chat room..im sure this would prob complicate matters of this site more..im just being...me..im scared for my appointment in september..and i guess it would be nice to have a convo with someone. Though i have to admit getting a MS chat room would save all of you the trouble of listening to my bouts fear and annoyingness...

inny

[Inny2009]

lol lulu and missy...you two crack me up! If you guys really want to be crazy with me then I will wait till next weekend how bout it? A trip to the loony bin anyone? All aboard!

Thank you for not getting angry with me. Im so exhausted of feeling like this and not having an answer..no validation and I figure...well....hmm...

Well thanks again..it means alot to me!!!

Inny

[missy72450]

I am with Lulu on that one this weekend is not the time to go crazy, I have to work and I want to be added to that trip.

You still do not have me beat in the whining department so keep trying sister.

We are all scared believe me. I am probably the biggest baby of them all. Check out my journal post this week and you will note that it is open.

Keep the faith sweetie, all will be well. There is someone who will listen to you and find out what MS., trouble has in store.

Just keep talking and asking questions there is a wealth of info here.

Missy

[Lulu54]

Inny,
MH isn't going to do a chat room anytime in the near future.

You can whine, complain,cry and rejoice here all you want and I promise we won't get tired of you.  And truthfully, you have to remember that we all learn from each other and your experiences may very well be helping others.

There will be no going crazy -at least not this weekend.  When you go, I want to come along and right now my weeked is booked! LOL

lots of hugs,
Lulu

[Inny2009]

thanks sarah :)

I just hate being annoying and needy and constantly complaining. It seems when a symptom flares pretty bad i become a blubbering mess cuz its a ..here we go again...Im scared because what happens if i go to my nuero in Sept and he says im fine? What if he tests my reflexes and then instantly got better, even though my previous doctor report says severely "blunted". What If he tells me its all in my head.

I have all of these what ifs because i have gone to so many doctors in 3 years, including hospitals and they look at me like im an idiot. This is my chance..its a nuero..someone who could actually help me..and what if this illness is all in my head?

Im just worried that these symptoms are all in my head. The spots in my eyes, the weakness and fatigue...the confusion. I dont want to be crazy...but im afraid he will make that diagnosis. What if he orders an MRI and see's no brain lesions or spinal lesions from a spinal tap? Ive only been sick for 3 years..i dont know how long it takes for lesions to appear...

I just dont want to be crazy...mainly because if I am then I am going to have to live like this for the rest of my life without medication to help me. Ive been on antidepressents and it hasnt taken away my symptoms...i still have the muscle spasms, and all that i mentioned above and more..

I took the antidepressents because when they first told me it was just depression i took them thinking hey if it makes me feel better than im taking it...granted...it did help my mood but i still had symptoms

If i have to live with these symptoms for the rest of my life with no relief I think ill go mad. Then I really will be crazy. I just cant handle this pressure. And with these coming and going symptoms...that range all over the spectrum i just want to throw a temper tantrum until someone gives in to me.

I just want this to go away...i just want to be normal...i dont care anymore what it is or how to treat it, just get rid of it...im at my breaking point.

Thanks,

inny

[Sparkysarah]

I think what you are feeling is something that most of can understand. What are you particularly scared of...as you may find that by expressing it, some on the anxiety may disappear.

Don't worry about using the forum to tell us what you are feeling and it is no trouble to any of us...we all have bad days.

Take care and big hugs

Love Sarah x