I'm having a pitty party - lol do i need chocolate!

[supermum_ms]

Hi Guys and Dolls,

I'm living the nightmare and i'm not sure anything else is going to throw hickups my way, seriously things are going to hell in a basket and i'm feeling sorry for my self in a big way!!

Some of you will remember i decided to quit smoking, not so bad but all these bother some things are making me want to smoke so i can end the missery sooner, that or a 22 might be quicker lol I'm currently in another big episode, so my sx are in over drive and the fatigue is horrible, i stopped smoking so i'm in withdrawl, i started my periods, i have mouth ulcers, a soar throat, i'm over heating and to top it all off I now have really painful hemarroids (sp).

I'm wondering if tomorrow when i wake up, i'll have missplaced an arm or two or yee godds will have decided i am pregnant like ess's wonkie test said i was, hmmm periods and pregnant or maybe i'll start menapause instead lol so its a pitty party at my house, ds is trying to foster himself out, dh is organising an overseas work trip so he can comvieniently return when its all over. And i'm eyeing the chocolate BABY BIG TIME!

Cheers,,,,,,,,,,,JJ

[supermum_ms]

Thanks for the info Jemm, though i have to disagree, i think quiting is the hardest part of the process especially for long term smokers but i do think there could be something easier about quitting, if the smoker was able to stop smoking whilst pregnant. I realise any withdrawl sx i had when i stopped when pregnant, i probably put it down to being pregnant and didn't really notice the withdrawl. Both times my focus was on the baby, afterwards it still was because of breastfeeding but when it was back to being just little old me.

The smoko became my one and only time alone, to relax, decompress, time out etc, just me time, like a smoke fill force field that kept people at bay lol Things changed over the years and when i went back to work, i discovered that smokoes were social times, I made good friends who smoked probably because we seemed to always congregate together on breaks. I think for me smoking became more about taking breaks than if i felt like one or not. Seriously weird for a 35 yr smoker but i often go a full day with out smoking and not thought about smoking once in that time, no break = no smoke lol

I think the key to giving up is your motivation and determination for doing so, mine is to stop making 'this' worse and i suppose to recognise that i dont need the crutch to give my self a break or a time out lol.

Fingers crossed.............JJ

[JemmAus]

OOOOPS, typo: 'stopping WHEN pregnant', not 'then'....

[JemmAus]

For anyone considering quitting smoking - I smoked 20+ a day for about 20 years, only stopping then pregnant (and then starting again the moment the precious loves cried too much at home!). Decided was getting too old to continue so set about quitting about 5 years ago.

First I cut down. That is much easier than stopping dead. I went, over a period of about 6 months, from 20 to minimum 5 a day, 8 on a bad day. Once I was content on five, I sat there for months - maybe 6 months all up.

The I realised, what's the point of only five a day? Might as well have none and save a few bucks.

So I just stopped. it was very easy - I was only crabby for a day.

I really think quitting is easy. STAYING a non-smoker is the hard part because they are so readily available in the shops. It's so easy to go, oh, i'll just duck down a buy a pack and sneak one in, no one will know.......

So if you want to quit, try it that way. It worked for me.

Oh, on the down side, I don't feel any more well from not smoking. I look awful, feel awful, but of course that is from MS, menopause and chronic migraines.

I think the only difference is if I get a cold it doesn't turn into bronchitis - though I only get a cold about once every two years so maybe that's not really relevant anyway??

[supermum_ms]

Your all heart!! ROFL

On the no smoking front, its not really that bad (hint hint addi), i'm still laughing most of the time, which is great for everyone. By the end of the day i'm just a tad quick to fire up, you know 0-100 in seconds but i'm not sure its from the no smoking and not from just being fed up with the never ending pain. It is harder to not smoke when i'm tired, its always been an issue for me, i cant really say its cravings, more to do with staying awake and a long standing habbit.

I've not seen my dr since the itchy rash spots, that went away completely with the antibiotics, antihistamine and cortizone cream, but it came back again about a week after i'd finished the antibotics and by then i'd started falling over, the begining of this episode. Bizzar but I seem to get really ill or get a harder hitting episode AFTER i've had some bug thats needed the heavy hitting antibiotics, anyone know what that about??!!

Anyhoo, today my brain feels less like custard and more like cream, if i add the chockie i'll end up with genash lol. I'm hoping it means the fatigue is on the end run and its going to get better from here on out, putting on my optomist hat! The alternative is something that usually happens when my immune system is fighting something (could explain the rise in temp) I feel better for a while, then it goes to hell in a basket again lol fingers crossed its not and it IS a sign that things are starting to look good.

Well its only taken me 2 hours to write this, lol it is getting better!!

Whining................JJ

PS My doc wants me to go to a private hospital and i simply dont have the money, maybe next time!

[jensequitur]

Hey, I'll bring the whine!

[Ojibajo]

To bad you live across the pond. We could have had a pity party together!

[RazCarver]

going to frig to get a swig of chocolate syrup in toast to your party. hey, I live alone and can do that, only reason I have chocolate syrup in the frig anyways. LOL.    - Raz

[addicted2harleys]

Aww, JJ!  I would give you a hug but you would probably smell smoke on me and that would not be helpful!  So, from a distance, I can toss you bunches of chocolate, salt for your mouth, Midol and tucks.  

While you take full advantage of the gifts I bring, we friends of the forum shall begin the plans of throwing you the biggest, bestest baby shower ever!!

We also have arranged a private investigator to keep tabs on the dh so we can make sure he finds his way back home after the shower and pity party!

We got your back, sista!

On a serious note, have you let your doc know what is going on?  Maybe you can have some symptom relief (IVSM or something) of some kind.  I honestly hope you stick to your task of quitting the nasty habit that I can't seem to shake myself.  I am proud of you for that, that's for sure!

Just remember, nightmares always end.  I know that doesn't help any, but it is good to remember it cause it is true.  :)

We are care about you, JJ.  And hope the chocolate helps you lose your nightmares soon.  

Hugs,
Addi

[HVAC]

Sorry things are tough.

[sllowe]

Yikes, Woman!!!!!!

I'll be of no support where the butts, roots (what I call em'), cigs, stogies are concerned.

But, salt water your mouth up so you can have some chocolate! And, add some whipped cream on top!

Geez! Your on fire at all ends, lol (now I know it's not funny, but you started it!)

You got "tucks" over there?
-shell

[shermay]

Pity Parties are ALLOWED :))) ...........

Especially when you've quit smoking! ..........

Chocolate, ice cream, and anything else you fancy;)

How many weeks have you stopped for now??  It's hard to quit - I know, but this should be a celebration Pity Party:))

Way to go JJ - your doing  so well - I'm proud of you and I'm sure your DH will be too.

Hugs,

Debs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Lulu54]

Ah JJ, it really is ok to throw a pity party for ourselves every once in a while, but finish it with cake, ice cream, balloons, party games, whatever it takes to get the party done and on the upswing

Unfortunately, like every party when it is over, you have to clean up the mess.  It sounds like you won't have any guests to shoo out the door though if your family is in hiding elsewhere.

Be sure to get the address of where DS went to live - you might want to visit at least.  Or know where to send his clothes.  :-)

Tell DH to send his paycheck  ...  he has a housekey and can sneak in when he thinks the party is done.  LOL

Chocolate?  Do we have to be in crisis for indulging?  Go for the chocolate and only eat your favorite pieces.  Leave the ones you don't like for DH when he reappears.


I'm so proud of you with the smoking - I know how tough it is.  It takes a while for those addictions and the habits to quiet down but it is worth it.  Don't quit quitting now, ok?

hugs and more hugs,
L