It's all about me

[Quixotic1]

Hi, all, I am so sorry to be sooo absent.  To quell all worries, I didn't fall with my leg over my neck or get my right foot caught in my left garter and flip myself out the window.  However, with the schedule and routine upset of this remodel I find that I am continually exhausted and not getting anything productive done.  I do know that there are things I need to answer and tons of things I want to answer, but when I sit down in front of the computer my brain just quits.  So, I decide to sit down a while and it ends up being a long while, then it's night and then the workers are back and we are still running round making decisions.

Today, we acted like it was Father's Day, because one of the granddaughters could only come this weekend and not next, so Kabobs on the Grill it was.  My parents are soo excited about the build-out and all the wonderful progress.  In 9 days we have all the new plumbing trenches and pipe-laying done, all seven rooms framed out, the electrical is almost done, the elevator hoistway is excated and the permit is in our hot little hands.  We have the three french doors and two new windows put in and the whole basement is awash in natural light.  I am preparing the glass tile for the mosaic pattern I want in my bathroom.  Our contractor is right on schedule to have this finished in 2 months, even though we have thrown some extras in on him.

Somehow, I don't feel like I am doing too well.  Nothing too specific except that I feel addlepated and my memory is shot.  Also, my memory is shot.  I'm having bigtime incontinence and some pretty severe bladder spasms.  I'm going to drop off a UA at the lab tomorrow and see if there is any infection.  There's kind of a stong odor.  The spasticity in my left leg is much worse.  About three nights ago I was out on the front porch feeding my racoons.  One of them is a brooding mama.  The three kits are too cute.  They are too young to eat the kibble I put out, but the little ones climb into the tub of water I keep for them and whirl around.  

Anyway I stepped off the top level of the porch and my right leg did not hold, so I went down.  Once down none of my muscles would hold, and I couldn't get back up.  I was kneeling on kibble and my knees felt like they were on fire.  Everytime I moved my leg would spasm and jerk and I couldn't make any progress toward getting up without yelling for my sister.  Anyway- I felt like a total dufus.  So then I had little kibble-shaped bruises on my knee.  Scared the daylights out of the racoons.  Poor babies.  Once I was upright my legs held me just fine.

Then today I stepped onto a wadded up blanket at my recliner and my R ankle wouldn't hold the slight eversion.  I went down again right in the middle of the living room - in front of my parents, my niece, her boyfriend and God and everybody.  Sheesh!  Just what I didn't need was everyone fussing about my using a walker.  It's really time to lose weight.  I can't be in this position.  So, I'm kind of stove-up and sore, but without injuries.  Thankfully, I have bone density stronger than that of the average healthy 35-yr-old woman.   Sheesh!  When I did martial arts I learned to tuck and roll and I fall pretty gently.

So, that is sort of why I haven't been around.  I'm sorry.  I know that a lot of you depend on hearing from me.  You are not forgotten.  To whomever asked if I was alienated or offended by anything - Oh my gosh, No!!  I just have too much on my plate.  I had even avoided writing a progress note, because I knew that doing this would take up all my energy that I could have used posting on the forum - and it has.

My last whine is that for some reason now I have an emerging Restless Limb Syndrome thingy happening and my right leg and arm keep me from sleeping, so I have to go back up on my clonazepam which I just finished tapering down.  As Roseanne Rosanna Danna used to say, "It's always somethin'!"

You are never far from my thoughts dearhearts.  I check in frequently and I will get everyone an answer who has reuqested it and, I hope some others, too.  Off to set up the weekly schedule.

Love to you all.

Quizzle Sticks

[sllowe]

Dear Quixy,

You amaze me.

Kibble....shaped......bruises...LOL!  Glad they were not on your forehead!  

Big Woo hoo on the permits and progress!

((hugs))) - shell
p.s. you still "sorta, kinda" taking the steroid? No need to answer right away- just wondering if you were - with all the weakness still a force to reckon with.  

[doublevision1]

I'm impressed, you are quite the multi-tasker; it sounds like you are doing more in the run of a day than I do in a whole week.  No wonder you are feeling out of sorts with all that's going on. And I'm sure wiping out like that in front of your family wasn't any fun.  At least it wasn't out in public, in front of complete strangers who might mistake you for being drunk.  Gotta look on the bright side. :)  but do I know what you mean.  Being fussed over by concerned loved ones, when you just want to say STOP IT, I'm FINE, stop FUSSING!!  in response to their genuine concern.  I've had such moments and would much prefer a calmer response.  The world is not coming to an end....I just slipped and I am not a fragile china doll...can everyone stop fussing about and can we all just get over it please?  Oy..........

[Karen99]

You haven't felt right since your cold/flu, have you?  Me neither.  Everything is a tad bit more difficult and requires more energy than usual.  Just take it slow and pace yourself and your energies.  Keep on solid ground too.  :-(

I'll just say ditto to what others have said.  Be a little more cautious during this busy time.  Good thing you bounce well, but damn it hurts!  Be well.  

Karen  

[michelleric]

Thanks for the update. Keep on taking care of yourself, and rest when you can.  You sure have tons going on... try to take is easy..

Michelle

[Sarahsmom46]

When I read through your accounting of the past few days, I could almost see it happeneing.  Yikes...You are really getting a roughing up and toughening up.  What doesn't kill us makes us stronger, so they say and I hope you get stronger very soon.  It is scary when your legs give out and you don't see it coming.  

The good news is that your remodeling project is moving forward and on schedule. Thank goodness for that.  Take care of yourself and keep us updated when you have the energy.  

Julie

[Eyesnlegs]

You already have pride of place in our Hall of Fame, you earned that, so take care and be well, we are all thinking of you.

Pat x

[SickMomma_PDX]

Quix,

Thanks for updating us, and please take care of yourself and know we'll all still be here when you're feeling better and have more time! Yikes on the falls, but I'm glad you're doing OK other than being bruised and such.

Hang in there, and I hope life quiets down soon for you!!

--SM

[Ufrustrated2]

Happy to hear you are doing ok. Do take care of yourself!  I too I'm on the tail end of a small remodel job that has taken 3 months. 1.5 months longer and way more money than my nerves have gotten used to.

this MS thing and some stressors and how my mind/body work through all this takes a toll on me that I have a hard time accepting and explaining to myself.  thanks for your post, reading of others and their challenges helps ...

your house is going to look and feel so good once done!

[Deb61]

Please don't stress yourself too much!  You've got to let something give, and the remodeling and your health right now is priority.   You deserve the luxury of letting something go right now.  MS and stress are explosive combinations.  

Take care,
Deb

[goofysmom1]

Your remodel sounds amazing!  Remodeling can be completely exhausting - please take good care of yourself during this crazy time.  

Take care,
Chrisy

[missy142]

Hope you are soon feeling better.

missy

[biowham]

Quix, the falls are scary...thank goodness you have such good bone density. And I'm sorry to hear about the brain fatigue. On the flip side, how wonderful that the contractor is moving apace and that you will be doing such a good thing for your parents.

Love the wildlife. We have a lot here...raccoons, foxes, coyotes, etc., and it's great for the kids to see them outside.

Bio

[lala47]

Take care of yourself, and the remodel sounds beautiful!!!!  Some friendsof ours had a pet racoon.  The mother was killed and they raised from a baby.  Bottle feedings, vet trips.  They have had her for several years, but sadly she past away the other day.  They were so upset.  LuLu was thier baby.  (Sorry LuLu, really that was her name.)  Speaking of LuLu, she has been a real work horse on this forum.  So, rest easy Quix, LuLu has got your back.  Be careful and I hope the remodel cont's to go smooth.

lala

[Janette2836]

I can't wait for the house warming party  :)

I do hope all the house stuff calms down for you soon so you can get the mental & physical rest you need.  Take care & thanks for the racoon story.

[PastorDan]

We will continue to pray for your health and safety, along with praying that the remodeling continues on a smooth course.

[Tammy826]

Hi Quix! Sorry to hear about your fall! Yes, we all miss you but you have to take care of yourself or you won't be able to help anybody!! It sounds like your plate is super-full! I admire you as I don't know how you do it all!! I'm so fatigued most of the time that I do good to go check my mail & let my dog out, so Kudos to you!! I love raccoons & saved a baby thats mother had been killed on the highway. I raised it up & it would follow me around like a little duck, whenever I wold stop it would climb all the way up to my shoulder. I pray your remodel is over soon & that you are feeling well again asap!! I think I'm also ready to graduate to a walker as this cane isn't helping much, so use yours especially if it prevents those nasty falls!! I'll keep you in my prayers! Warmest Regards! Tammy

[jules2212]

Hi Quix,
Hope your doing better,i dont post much but when i do i always get answers from some of the wonderful users of this forum. So this time i have to send you all my best wishes and hope you get everything done the way you want it. I also wish you and your family good health i know your having a lot of issues at this time, but hope it passes and you get back to the best possible level of  health you can wish for. Take care Quix and hope to see more of you around the forum when you get the Time, Energy, Peace to do so.

All the best
Julie x

[Nancy T]

Hi Quix. Wow, I only think of raccoons as big scary things that used to live in our huge deodara cedar (until we had to cut it down) and that made me afraid to let our cats out in the evening! Also, the critters that ate all the goldfish in our backyard pond (took me a long time to figure out how several dozen goldfish disappeared in one night, until weeks later I saw a couple of raccoons ambling up the walk toward the pond! light bulb!).

I hope that once the remodel is done, you will get more rest and feel better altogether. And hey, what would be wrong with using a walker occasionally during an especially tiring and stressful time?

Feel better soon,

Nancy

[rendean]

You have so much on your plate. Take care of yourself and your remolding  project. Yes, we miss you and your wonderful advice and quick wit but you need to take care of you , first.

Stop feeling guilty. It sounds like you're doing too much already given your recent mishaps.
I hope you mend quickly, although the pride healing may take a little longer.

Glad you stopped in for a progress note. It' s good to know you're hanging in there!

In my thoughts,
Ren

[Lulu54]

Thanks for letting us all know the update Q.... now I can finally go to sleep and rest easy without worrying too much about you and the buildout.  Good night.  - L

[Fluffysmom]

Wow, what amazing progress on the remodel!  So much going on, and you're doing the creative thing with the glass mosaic; no wonder you're tired.  Your sleep patterns are all disrupted.

I could just see the raccoons when you described them; how wonderful!  Not the falling into the kibble part, of course!  :o)

Total bummer about your falls and Restless Limbs; I hope the clonazepam helps.  It is "always somethin'!".

Thanks for taking the time to update us and let us know that you care (like we didn't know that!).  You know that we all love you, and though we miss your advice, we totally understand what you're going through.  And wish and hope that things improve physically and addlepatedly, and that the remodel continues to be smooth.

Love and Hugs,

Kathy

[CheeserNurse]

Thinking of you, Quix! Take care of yourself!!!!! :-)

A~