Just thought I'd throw in a question while I am still awake, I think. Epilepsy?

[wishforchange]

Hi, sorry not around much.  Really too tired and confused to talk here.  But will throw out a general question.  Has happened more frequently in recent days, whether well slept or not, home or out.  I blink, and when I open my eyes a period of time has passed.  GP suggested unlikely idea of absence seizures, which I thought belonged to children.

  Relations so bad with my neuro even after I mentioned it no reply.

Eye pain at weekend was excrutiating, never known anything like it.  Could not move my head from the pillow.  But have been told no point in going to eye hospital.  Have appointment with eye neurologist this week.  Will be treated like dirt for sure.

Have sleep study pending.  Will this show it this is what is going on.  Yes I take lorry loads of medication, yes my sleeping habbits are terrible, but has been this way for years.

It happened this morning in hairdresser, one second I was having my hair put in foil, the next jumping violently as the hairdresser came to rinse the colour off.  The night before I had slept a full eight hours.

Happened again on transport, got on, blinked, then realised we were at the end of my journey and had to get off and go back.

Typing on the computer, blink, and suddenly minutes have passed.

This is very recent, and getting more frequent.  Know  how it is normal to zone out when your tired or doing routing things,  but it's almost as if the very effort of concentrating brings it on.

If I sound crazy just tell me.  Have already heard that from some doctor who knew nothing about me.  Long story.  Shared with only a few right now.  Hurts too much.  Just reassure me it's not epilepsy and will forget it, with my old lady short term memory.  Who'd've'thoughtI'd'veendeduplikethis?

Anyway, sleep now and thanks if anyone answers.  wish

[Amphitrite]

What your describing does sound like stress related disorder. Regardless of whether you've been stressed previously in life has no effect on how your body may cope with stress in the furture. Being run down physically and ebing physically stressed(i.e pain) can certainly make any psycological stress and it's effects more severe.
Kind of like, stress run amuk when your nervous system becomes overloaded as stress plays a very large role in the physical body and brain.

From reading your posts I can see how much you've been through in the past years and how hard it's been for you to go from very healthy and active to very ill and innactive. It wouldn't be suprising if that has been an emotional trauma to your psychic functioning and ability to cope.
None of this is to say your unstable psychoilogically, not at all, It's very common when dealing with alot. And only an idea anyway.

All these appointments; doctors and others, your enviorment and your physical health and the pain are all taking a toll on you mentally and emotionally. Without dealing with these stressors and finding a way to cope with them your inevidebly allowing them to run rampant gaining strength and quietly becoming out of control.
In a situation as yours it would be common for the brain to have such an overload of stress that it momentarily shuts itself off in a way to protect you from metaphoric combustion. Or , everything becoming too much causing a breakdown of emotions.

Getting coffee, getting off the bus..these all seem like very simple tasks which require little stress(well, unless the line is miles long and the bus is overpacked) But because your body and mind is so stressed even small tasks add more stress to each leading to an overload. Even the enviorment around you, a busy noisy cofffe house, a busy noisy bus can overload your senses and cause stress to pile up.

The way to deal with this is to find a way to deal with the stress. Seeing a therapist so you can talk it out. Maybe you need a good long hrad cry. Crying releases built up stress. And although crying obviously isn't the answer, it can help release mental and physical stess through your body.

Of couse you need to rule out any kind of brain trauma or seizure episodes. But while you're waiting for those app why not just see if talking to someone helps.

Anyway, this is only what my mind first went to after reading your post. It may be none of what's really going on. But you need to deal with it regardless because it will most likely continue and increase in severity if left untreated.
And even if it is an overload of mental and physical stress, that doesn't make you unstable. It's a normal physical reaction to an amount of stress that is impossible to continue carrying. If it is the problem it's just your body telling you it can't keep up carrying the amount of stress it has been.

Hope your well,

Amph

[wishforchange]

Thanks.  How do I get anyone to take this seriously?  After the most unimaginable head and eye pain over the weekend this is just worsening.  Portions of my day just going missing, suddenly finding myself doing something with no memory of the preceeding events, paying for a coffee and being asked by the assistant if I was all right, as I was just standing there staring at the wall apparently.  Slept until mid afternoon today.  It's like living in a half reality at the moment.  Never, ever had this before, and have been stressed many times in my life.  

Myabe finally all my medications are interacting and tipped me over the edge.  This is scary, not knowing  what I am doing for some of the time, the stuff of horror films.

  Need to get some important emails sent.  Seeing an eye specialist tomorrow who is a neurologist but fully expect to be dismissed by him.  Think if I tell him what is going on, he will just note my date of birth and sex and declare me hysterical or something.  Don't think I have a multiple personality.  These episodes seem to involve me doing absolutely nothing,  clearly just stopping vacantly.  Weirdly it comes on when I want to do something, like about to get off a bus, or buy a coffee, suddenly I phase out and find myself a mile down the road or with some person asking me why I am just staring at the wall.  I need to be so on top of things to get my case across right now, and this is doing me no favours.

Thank goodness they are doing a sleep study, inevitably they will run an EEG, need to know if there is something showing up there which explains this.  Unfortunately falls into the category of symptoms like fatigue, chest pain, etc. , that women learn not to tell their doctors, because of their reaction.  I am a psychologist, I know what is depression, I know anxiety, I know psychosis, and I know this is not what is going on.  Right, will get on with my emails, while I am still lucid..

[jensequitur]

Who knows!  But epileptics don't have neurological symptoms (other than passing out and involuntary movements.)  However, seizures happen when parts of the brain are damaged - so it's quite possible that neurological damage is causing the seizures.

[GrannyJo6]

I was just thinking I hadn't seen you around! Now we know why. Sounds terrible! And a little frightening to boot! I've not experienced anything like it but perhaps others have. I had one really strange episode after a migraine that was very much like an absence seizure. It was pretty weird - I knew I was staring at a picture, but thought I was talking to my co-workers. I wasn't! A couple hours later I was smacking my lips. Neuro thought seizure at first but then decided it was a post migraine state. Never heard of it, but almost happened several times after that and then never again. Sure wish you could find someone who would take you seriously! Keep up informed!