Losing my mind?

[floridamom2]

I have been feeling like I cannot think over the past few days, it seams to be getting worse.  I cannot concentrate and feel very much like "nothing".  Also, the shooting pains throughout my body seam to be more pronounced and I feel like my spine is on fire.  I don't want to call my doctor unless I have to and don't really feel up to a fight for anything right now.  I do have a hx of depression and maybe that is what is causing this.  I am also having more perineum loss of function and numbness and felt for the first time today like I was losing continence but I did not.  

Feeling crazy and tired!  Any suggestions?
Thanks, Kristin

  

[floridamom2]

Thanks for your response.  It is so important for me to be able to laugh at myself right now and you have put into words exactly what my life is like.  At least my husband has a great sense of humor too and helps me make fun of myself without being cruel.  I fell yesterday for the first time since this all started and happened to fall onto a just painted floor.  If you have ever seen "the Money Pit" with Tom Hanks when he falls into paint and then proceeds to send off a comical train of events, it was not that funny but very close!  Have a  great Sunday!
Kristin

[doni54]

Hi I am new to this forum,as of today! I already feel better knowing I have someone to talk to. I posted earlier about my sx and that I have just started the process of dx.  I can identify with the "brain farts" as my family kindly refers to them.  I have always been very good at verbal communication, but in the past 6 months I don't even want to start a conversation.  I find myself talking about something to my husband and then I can't even find the words to finish my sentence. It's like I can't find the word or name you call the subject I'm talking about.  Sometimes it is a simple as not being able to say dog!  

My concentration is off too, I can't find the mind power to even sit down and pay bills anymore.  It's like a feeling of not wanting to even try to think or talk.

I sure am glad I have you guys to talk to about all this, my family doesn't want to even entertain the possibility that something is wrong with me.  

I also go from feelings of helplessness to anger that this might be MS and to just wanting to know for sure.

Thanks all,
Doni

[floridamom2]

Welcome and you are in good , um . . . . . . . . . company!  I am gonna go read your other posts so I get aquainted with you.  It is so nice to be able to relate to people  that are going through the same thing.
Have a great Sunday!
Kristin

[leah2005birds]

You're definitely not crazy - just suffering. Sometimes meds can aggrivate each other to work against instead of helping you. That might be an area to explore.
Brain fog is such a bummer, isn't it? I can know exactly what I'm talking about but can't for the life of me remember certain words. It's frustrating when you're trying to ask someone to bring you a box of Kleenex and you have to go into a long drawn out description of what you want the item is including what you do with it!!!  :-) This can definitely get amusing at times. I have a 2nd cousin w/advanced MS and when got together last Christmas - her mother just shook her head and left the room!!! She couldn't remember someone's name then I couldn't remember something and we just talked in circles trying to describe and remember what we were trying to talk about! Man, it get exausting sometimes, doesn't it? Guess its a good thing we're not brain surgeons trying to ask our attendant nurses to hand us a specific surgical tool   :-0    That would be a terrible predicament!!!
Leah

[floridamom2]

Hi and Thanks!  I called my neuro and he was out of town - that would be the third time in 2 months!  I made an appointment to see my gyno on Monday - I trust him more anyways and will ask him where to go to from here.  The neuro had increased my antidepressant when she thought it was "anxiety" but I went back down to usual dose after 1 week and 5 lb weight increase!!!  I guess I have to re up it so I guess "Porky" would actually be appropriate.  This isn't the first time I have had to be fat and happy instead of skinny and sad!  Thanks for sharing where you are emotionally too, it helps me to feel less inadequate about needing help right now.  

I will continue the search for my mind and I'll let you know if I see yours.lol.   Have a good night sleep.
Kristin

[Quixotic1]

Hi, "Porky",  Hmmm....that doesn't come out just right, does it.  My emotions are very labile right now.  I go from "numb" like you speak of, to suddenly very weepy.  I also seem to "take things the wrong way" very easily.  In my mind it is my chronic depression rearing up, but I'm also tired of feeling crummy, and that's just normal.  I do not think that getting some help, especially if you have a history or a predisposition to depression is out of line.  You are not crazy!  And when you find your mind, it's likely hanging out with ours..

I am so much more articulate in text thna I have become verbally.  I was dynamite one on one in conversation, but now I have a lot of very non-pregnant pauses, that is they give birth to nothing - leaving me to just feel silly.

Call your doc.

Quix

[floridamom2]

The above post was for you too but it cut it off.  Thanks for your help!

[floridamom2]

Thanks for your help and yes I am calling right now.  I love the porky pig comment, aren't kids great at telling us exactly what they think!  Mine have started finishing my sentences instead of waiting for me to finish which could be a while.

Take care and have a good rest of the day!  Kristin

[T-lynn]

I can relate to the brain fog,my memory stinks,I have to write everything down.I have been having trouble with word association.My son told me yesterday I sounded like porky pig.

If your symptoms persist call your DR,don't suffer and just because you have a history of depression,doesn't mean everything is associated to that.

Your not crazy,fatigue can effect us and make us feel that way.

Call your DR before his office closes for the weekend.

[grannyhotwheels]

Call your doctor!  That's what he is there for.  Explain to him exactly what you wrote down and tell him that you have got to have something for the pain.  If he wont help you then go to the E.R.  I'm sorry for being so forward but I get so sick of doctors who don't believe you or wont get in any hurry to help you.  Who's paying their slary anyway?  

I hope the best for you and I will pray that you get the help you need.

Carol