Message For All

I haven't been feeling too well the past couple of weeks.  Arms and hands won't work to type, eyes bad, brain slower than usual.  I have just been keeping up with all of you and reading the posts when my eyes will allow.  Didn't want to post cause I knew I wouldn't make any sense anyway.

Well, today I just wanted to say that it warms my heart to be on this forum and to be even slightly associated with all of you.  I have never seen such a compassionate group of people in my entire 52 years.

All of you never hesitate to give a hand up or a kind word, you always stand by and support everyone. (we won't talk about the Lyme issue - ha)  It is amazing to me that I feel so close to most of you, even though I only know you through the typed word.  It seems that you all have a way of projecting your feelings with the words you type.  I know sometimes (Quix) this is hard due to the trials and tribulations you all go thru on a daily basis.  Everyone here, no matter how they may be feeling, is always ready to help others with a kind word or answer to a question.

I have checked out a few other forums, but none compare to all of you.  Some won't even acknowledge you if you don't have an MS dx.  

This forum has helped me tremendously, both emotionally and educationally.  I have learned much about MS and though I am not dx, I know more about the symptoms, processes  and tests to get there.  

I know I have said this before, but I just want to thank all of you and let you know how special you all are.  I know I can always count on all of you to answer my questions and pick my spirits up.  It is really easy to let these symtoms (symptoms) scare you and get you down, but with a good support group it somehow eases some of the uncertainty.

Like I said at the beginning, it has been a tough few weeks for me and I find myself getting really depressed.  How do all of you combat this overwhelming feeling of dispair?

Well, I didn't do this post to ask questions, I did it to say thank you to all of you for being the kind and caring people that you are.  THANKS!

Be well!
Love to you all
Doni

[sllowe]

Much love and prayers to you too Doni - I feel the same way you do w/the forum members.  It's heaven sent.
I wish you were feeling better.  I am unsure of where you with dx, have to read back on the posts, however, please let a Dr. know of your despair, as depression is so common, and there help for that. Don't hesitate, do it for you, and keep us posted,
Be well,
SL

[Hope38]

I second what Doni says, you all know that you are all very special.  I myself have been very blessed to find this board.

My prayers are with you Doni and everyone else on the board.

Lisa

[EL18]

I third it too. I too have look around at different forums and have always returned here to were I truely believe people care. I don't think anyone will ever know how the forum has got me thrugh some pretty darl times.

I've been away from the forum for a while too cos my hands decided not to work properly so I think understand a bit about what you have been going through.

I really hope you feel better soon.

Keep smiling

Em

[Momzilla]

Back atcha!

I hope I don't offend anyone by saying this, because I don't know what your religious beliefs are, but I think God gives us opportunities to reach out to each other in different ways, and this has just been a special little (but GROWING!) community here.  We are bonded by our quest for knowledge or answers, maybe, and it's great to encourage each other, to cheer each other on.  

I'm so grateful for all of you, and genuinely hope that each and every one of us finds our answers and sense of wellness.  It can be such a frustrating niche we've found ourselves in.  

Fell better Doni, thanks for all your sweet notes, and thanks for posting this one.  So thoughtful!

Chris*

[grannyhotwheels]

My heart goes out to you.  We all know what it's like to get down and depressed.  Especially when your in pain and all kinds of things are happening to your body and nobody can explain why.  

There are days when I can't even get dressed.  All I want to do is lay around and give myself a pity party.  I often ask God, why me?  What did I ever do so bad that this had to happen?  Well guess what it is me and I'm just gonna have to deal with it.  The one thing that keeps me going is knowing the the Lord has a plan.  There is a reason this was allowed to happen and I just have to lean on him and trust him.   Even though I have a hard time dealing with the fact that I can't  play wallyball with my friends or run outside with my grandkids.  I still want to have a happy life.  So far the Lord is helping me achieve that.

Hang in there and no matter what we will be here for you.  Any time you need to talk, cry, or laugh there will be someone on-line to be with you.

I'll be praying,
carol

[doni54]

You are all so precious to me, I don't have the words to express how my heart feels. You always make my days better and today is no exception.

God Bless you all!
Love
Doni

[floridamom2]

You are all such a wonderful group of people and I am sooooooo lucky to have found you all!!

Hang in there Doni and remember better living through pharmaceuticals!! LOL  The reality is I have suffered from depression since my first son was born and have found that although I would love to be able to be off of the antidepressants and be "normal",  I am a better person on them.  I can get up in the morning without crying and can function to be there for my family and friends.  That is where my joy comes, from doing for others and finding a way to get out of my head.

I hope that someday my brain chemicals will change and I can get off of the AD but for now I accept that this is God's will and life will unfold the way it is supposed to in his time, not mine.

Peace and Blessings to you all!!!!!!!!!
Kristin

[frann]

Hi,
I am so glad you let us know how you are doing. I mean this, i was going to post a question today where you were since i didn't see any posts from you lately. We have so many symptoms that are similar and i do believe we started posting ehre around the same time. I hope you start to feel better. You have been in my prayers.
ps yesterday my mother in law was taken to er... had a heart attack & is scheduled for a pacemaker... so i was at er for 8 hrs until 2 am... a little groggy today... so unfortunately sometimes it really hits a family hard all at once... couple weeks ago my grandson had a seizure, thankfully we are a family that prays together and draw strength from God and each other... and now fortunately l have this wonderful, caring site... I do believe God found this site for all of us.

Take care & as always GOD bless,
Frann

[Quixotic1]

Doni, I'm so sorry you are having a down time.  The despair is just awful, but try to remember it is from the disease, not from within you.  We can all fight against this together.  I, too, have horrible swings downward - am coming out of one.  It's a good question for the forum.  I fight mine by being with friends (here) remembering that the disease IS NOT WHO I AM, and by getting more sleep.  Fatigue is my biggest enemy.  Remember my favorite words from "The Desiderata,"

"Do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.  Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.."

This thread has been one of the most remarkable things I have ever read.  How several dozen people have come together to take each other through some of the darkest times of their lives.  I am so glad we have not been an exclusively MS Forum.  Becasue it is not about the disease, it is about the people, our lives and the process.  You have all become my dearest friends and my strongest lifeline. Thank you to all.  (I'm almost in tears).

Quix

[burbanchick]

I'm joining in too!  This is a very wonderful collection of people from all walks of life.  It truly is a great forum and I am so glad I stumbled upon it!

~Burbanc

[doreenA]

I am new to this forum. But from what you have said I think I will stick around and see how it goes. I feel so isolated having M.S. No one I know knows very little. My family doesn't understand because I dont look sick. Talking to people with the same issues that I have might be just what i need! I wish you the very best!
doreen

[doni54]

I am soooo glad I started this thread.  You are all so near and dear to me, you restore my faith in people.  I pray that all of you are feeling good today, and are in high spirits.  This thread has really picked me up and made me more determined to fight through this low time.

I just don't know what I would do without all of you, YOUR ARE THE GREATEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please take care of yourselves and know you are in my thoughts and prayers every minute of every day!!

Love You All
Doni

[doni54]

Sorry train of thought derailed.....................I have also had tears in my eyes, Quix, while reading these posts.  They are good tears though, and my heart is filled with love for all of you!

Doni

[karzme]

All of us struggle with depression of some kind, whether we have MS or not. I agree this is a great bunch of friends. It's nice to know we are there for each other. So hang in there all, there's always support here when you need it.   Karina