i need some peace of mind... or a prayer...

[applepie27]

I just had a western blot test done for HIV on the 15th of September  two months ago I had unprotected sex I know I know huge mistake trust me I feel like I'm paying for it... anyways I'm losing my mind and I'm making myself sick from anxiety thinking about my test so I went and got a oraquick test done and it came out to be negative but I read the box and it says it needs to be done three months and its only been two months its all I think about day and night I haven't slept this whole time all I can do is think I would say about a week after my encounter I had ulcers in my mouth and a cold sore on my lip fallowed by a fever and swollen tonsils with white spots and a white tongue the fever lasted a day or two but the with spots stayed on my tonsils and I had a white tongue for a whole mouth but during that time I wasn't in pain of any kind I also had some discharge and got treated for BV and the white on the tonge and the spots when away but now I'm having really bad muscle aches in my legs and up and down my arms with sharp pain at the bottom of my feet all I do every day is sit at the computer and google my symptoms and all point to HIV all I can do is cry and call the health department everyday to see in my results are in i don't know what kind of answer I'm looking for i guess just someone's opinion    

[applepie27]

thank you so much all my test came back negative!!!! thank you for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers I'm taking this as a sign from god and taking care of myself more!!!!

[applepie27]

thank you so much all my test came back negative!!!! thank you for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers I'm taking this as a sign from god and taking care of myself more!!!!

[mikeysmom1995]

I feel terrible for you and I can hear the fear in your post.
Like jj said, stay off of Google as it is just making things much worse.
You can't change what has happened so you need to take a breath and try not to worry.
I will pray for you and keep you in my thoughts.
Best regards barb

[shannon_xray]

I understand that anxiety.  Several years ago while I was drawing blood from a patient, I got stuck with the dirty needle from that high risk patient.  I had to undergo HIV testing for a year.  Thankfully I didn't and do not have HIV but the fear of that virus was overwhelming at times.  

Definitely listen to supermum because you are killing yourself with stress.  And I will say a prayer for you too.

Shannon

[supermum_ms]

Hi there,

i'm not sure if you realise it or not but your question has landed on the MS community.......personally, i think you did something you regret which probably caused you some anxiety. The sx's you mention experiencing around a week after is actually more likely to be unrelated but it has potentially triggered your anxiety to be more in line with 'health anxiety'.

If that is at all possible, you'll need to understand that your continual symptom googling, whilst being a common behaviour with health anxiety, it is the last thing you should be doing as it will only worsen your anxiety fears more and more........it's usually recommended that you stop googling, distract your self by keeping busy doing something that doesn't fuel your anxious thoughts and make an appointment with your doctor to discuss how obsessively afraid you are becoming over this!

Take care of your mental health.......JJ