on and off topic, and to all the US people thank you for giving us hope

[wishforchange]

Still no computer but just checking in before need to log out. Have to thank America for giving the world a terrific day on the Obama inauguration.  We all watched open mouthed at the millions of people and happiness in your country, and it made the world and our problems disappear for just a little while.  I was at the hospital at the time, believe me, staff and patients stopped work to watch the inauguration, in every room and every clinic the television was tuned to the same thing.  We felt like we were there with you.  You did yourselves proud, showing the courageous and kind side of your natures in how you welcomed the opportunity to change.  Feel like I'm writing a political speech myself here.  Anyway, in brief it cheered us up.  And in the UK right now we have enough problems it was very welcome.

Have not read recent posts, but pleased to see regulars still here, plus new people.  Am inching closer to getting to the source of my problems, with relevant blood tests and better doctors, but it is still a slow process.  Shame is it is because I am deteriorating, as I knew I was before doctors noticed - isn't it always the way - that things are being picked up on more seriously now.

For the boffins who have any advice, you may remember that I had very high IGM anticardiolipin readings amongst others.  Bloods being repeated and am being referred to a professor dealing with anti-phospholipid syndrome, along with some urgent heart, lung, and muscle testing.  Dominant hand and arm suddenly over recent months gone very weak and numb such as I can't grab properly.  There is loss of sensation in my lower legs, no strength left in my hips, and patchy numbness in my arms.  Eye problems too.  And on and on and on.  Other than that I'm fine.  Still being haunted by the ghosts of the old wicked GP, long story for those who don't know me, but he was and is doing a good job of wrecking my life.  It's like a race between his negativity and the positive process of diagnoses and help.  He wins, all over for me.  He loses and gets left behind, I can finally stamp his influence out permanently.  In the hands of the gods....

Whilst on this long rest from work signed up to do a correspondence legal course, get all that arguing streak to good work, plus will have to buy a computer.  Thinking of discussing with my hospital that I work in about transferring to pharmacy if they'll let me.  Imaging is likely to continue to be too strenuous for me unless I recover,  still hoping.  May mean I can return to work sooner.  I think realistically they can't have me back with a cane, there is a lot of moving and handling of unconscious patients and the like.  Or....may make a full recovery and then I can do whatever I like.  Here's hoping that for everyone here.

Thanks for letting me blog.  Can't tell the whole story of what's going on.  But one bit of good news.  With all the stress of it all have shed six kilos in about a month and the weight is dropping.  As long as it stops when I get to my ideal weight is a bonus.  Don't want to be skinny any more than want to be fat.  Right now am still plump though.  Weird how sometimes you can eat and eat and lose weight, and other times it just piles on.  Getting boring now so will stop.

Yes I know the shops are full of Easter stuff already but I haven't had the chance to wish all a happy new year, and a healthy one, so am doing so now.

Thinking of you,

wish

[Lulu54]

W- weight loss too?  You got it all going on right now.

I'm glad you enjoyed our big party on Tuesday - it was definitely a special day that will hopefully move us toward better relations with everyone.  

Later, L

[sllowe]

Hey Girl,

No time no see....You are so funny w/the legal course and arguing...made me laugh.  

Well, I'm sorry to hear you are getting worse woman, but on the flip side, it's nice you are getting some help!

Stay as positive as you can gal, and let us know what they say,
Thinking of you too,
Shell