Metadone clinic for 5 years and had enough!

I have been on a methadone clinic for 5 years now and since i started have not used any other drugs. i have had all clean drug tests, attend counseling twice a month and are on weekly take-homes so i only need to go to the clinic once a week. I started the clinic because i got pregnant and had my son on the clinic. My son is now almost 4 years old and i have been decreasing my dose for over a year! I was on 215mg and have gotten down to 52mg. I want to get off! I am so ready to live a "normal" life, whatever that might be. I have done a great jog so far coming from 215mg but now its getting harder. I dont know what to do. I have to be able to function to take care of my son so i am not able to be miserably sick and in bed all day. I have yet to find a detox that will accept me into there program to get off methadone. I need help on what i should do. If its best to ween off and how much i should go down a week and what not. My old counselor was amazing she knew alot and was great but ending up leaving. my new counselor i like but she really doesnt know much to be honest. anytime i ask her what i should come down she has no clue what i should do and asks me what i wan tto decrease my dose by. i need some suggestions and help! and wanted to knwo if anyone also has ever done rapid detox? anyone any suggestions and help would be greatly appreciated! I just need to get off. I hate waking up every mornig sick having to take my dose to get thru the day. I am greatful for what the clinic has done in my life. I wouldnt be were i am today if not for the clinic, so its not all bad but i never knew it would be this tough to get off the clinic once i wanted to get off! thanks in advance!
Jessica

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