Extremely concerned over active nerve condition with shocks

I will try and make this as short as possible. All my life, i craved junk food to put me in a calm, slow dazed state, yet awake, and make me think to myself and abstractly. It was good for school, and though I was social, was bored by social interaction. I had generally a heavy, slow, deep brain. Good for abstract thought and school. The flip side was that at around 5pm each day I would awake out of this state and become more active mentally and physically and socially. I also had a flip side: I could go to a total dazed, lazy, and still be part of a group of friends, and sluggish in the morning despite attempts not to, but if any physical task or competition was put before me, I became unrivaled in my focus, desire and intensity. Eventually that part burnt out. I have lifted weights and jogged all my life, always with difficulty getting mental and physical energy and having to use stimulants. I graduated magna *** laude, but was unable to hold a good job because of my weakening body and slow mind. I could think things through but it was often fuzzy, and often I would grow very tired and drained physically and mentally. I always had reactions to specific foods, and coffe. To calm me down or speed up my brain. Also jogging, creative thought and weight lifting (when I could), happy, dopamine type energy. Well slowly the food numbness stopped. The sugar cravings and brain changes stopped. The coffee did nothing. I couldn't gather the brain and body energy to workout and generate intensity anymore. I could barely jog, and was out of breathe and my legs felt heavy or would swell up.

Fast forward another 12 years. My general state has completely, in some respects changed. Where I always had a heavy, slow, introspective mind, with bursts, and ability to fake enthusiasm, I now have a constant over-alert state with no thought, no brain state changes, no sleepiness, and no ties to my body when I workout, jog, or try and get angry. I can not generate energy to lift weights. When I jog, my mind does not wander and there is no ease. Every step is tough, and I am exhausted, overheated by end of a simple 2 mile jog. Yet 10 minutes later I am over awake. I experience severe shock like anxiety in my stomach that goes to my head. Their is no cushioning in my body to prevent any of this. Working out makes things worse if I try. I was diagnosed with peripheral neuropathy. I had an EMG and NCS. Unfortunately nobody ever told me the extents of the damage, or the possible other areas of my body it could affect. I have no feeling, pleasure, etc. and can never feel normal, comfortable, smooth, nor sleep. I've been on all types of antidepressants, and now I am on Klonopin. When I go off it all hell breaks loose, and it never stops. Any explainations?



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