Thanks for your help doctor. It really ***** because I didn't always used to be this way. I remember when I was 15-16 and everyday I "knew" I was capable of doing anything, almost narcissistic even. I would have so much confidence and be a very extroverted person, and everybody either loved me or hated me and I just didn't care if they hated me because I had so many friends that it didn't matter. Now I'm 19 going on 20 and I still have plenty of friends but for some reason it's like I care about what everyone thinks, and I'll start having very concentrated trains of thought which in turn makes me wonder if I'm acting normal and worry that people might think I'm not acting normal which makes me more anxious and ugh! haha. It's the viscous circle that has totally taken control of my life and has led to me becoming a hypochondriac. I've seriously considered schizophrenia, dissociative identity, bi-polar, borderline personality, narcissistic personality, and add/adhd. I think it's clear that I should consider seeing a doctor, but my only worry is that if I do have any of those disorders that I'll either be put in a psych ward or be marked down for all of my future employers to see that I'm "crazy." I just want to be normal and I know I used to be at least.
Hi there. You are suffering from generalized anxiety disorder. Medications are available and can be used on prescription of your psychiatrist if they are interfering with your daily functioning. These are benzodiazepines like xanax, Librium, ativan etc which work by decreasing the physical symptoms of GAD like muscle tension and restlessness.
Cognitive behavioral therapy where you recognize and change thought patterns and behavior leading to anxious feelings. All this can be done only once your doctor has examined you and prescribed you these drugs and should strictly be not self administered.
Take care.
The jerking twitching gets worse as I get more anxiety, and I get more anxiety when I realise how uncomfortable my stomach is