Get thin and win?

I am a girl who has always been quite slim... not excessively skinny, but tall and lean. Recently, after hitting the end years of my teenagehood I have slowly put on weight. I look in the mirror and don't like what I see at all. It started when I lost my mother to cancer just after high school. After a little bit of councelling ( that I have only recently recieved) I have come to realise that the weight gain is partly to do with comfort eating after her death... makes sense... I would eat and eat and eat til I felt sick, convinced myself that it was a feeling of hunger and ate more. I am still never satisfied with what I eat and always want to eat excessively. I'm slowly getting a hold of it, but much of the time I give in. I have probably only put on 5-7 extra kilos, and I am not fat by all means, but I am worried what will happen if it continues. I can't seem to control my eating, or how I think about eating... ironically, it is eating me up, every moment of the day. It affects my moods too, I become stressed and anxious about my weight, but at the same time possessive and needy concerning my food. I have a boyfriend and worry constantly of loosing him over it... when he can see that I'm down and absorbed with bad thoughts he asks me whats wrong, but how can I tell him the messed up thoughts that are going on in my head???!!! Does anyone have any help or suggestions for me? Thanks heaps!

[Paxiled]

You sound like you're suffering depression.  Since it doesn't sound all that bad of one, I'd suggest a therapist to help you work it out.