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Bisexual ocd or on denial
Please please help me these doubts are ruining my life i dont know if i have hocd or im in denial.I know for a fact im not gay because i like girls had crushes feelings sexual urges fantasies about them. But i fear or worry about being bi Due to memories in the past although ive never fantasized being with a guy or masturbated over one.But these memories which could be real are killing me.Sometimes i see a nice looking guys body but and i freak out on the inside a little fearing i could like it but i didnt pay no attention to it i forget it the next day. There was this male teacher i had i never really thought of him sexually but he was a good looking guy but i believe i saw him as more superior to me but at the end of the school year in class i had a mild sexual thought and i worried a little on the inside but i forgot about it the next day sometimes i would see guys at the gym take their shirt off i get anxious i may get turned on so ilooked at them to reassure i dont get turned on but as again like i said i didnt pay attention to it and forgot about it the next day.I never had feelings for a guy at all.I tried masturbating at gay porn but i never experienced a full erection and hate the feeling that i kinda like it but fear of getting erect but it makes me uncomfortable nonetheless
you can refer to the book "Overcoming Obsessive Thoughts: How to Gain Control of Your OCD". This book is for pure o sufferers. So it will definitely help you.
My daughter has hocd, and this sounds a lot like what you are experiencing. I am not in a position to diagnose you, but what you are saying sounds exactly like hocd to me because of the extreme fear and anxiety you sound like you have. However, if it is hocd, it won't get better without help so you should definitely find an OCD therapist. Make sure that they know a lot about OCD, as a traditional therapist might not know how to treat this and that could definitely make it worse. I just attended the IOCDF.org conference, and there was an amazing presentation on this subject by Dr. Lee Baer. He has several books - you might want to check one out if you are not able to get in to see a therapist right away.
i think you have ocd, because homosexuals don't doubt their sexuality , they are confident about it, it is ocd which make people doubt about their sexuality
I think you should consult a psychiatrist , because a professional can only diagnose you, so please consult
No and this is whats scaring me because this hocd is depressing me and make me question all my memories
Do you have other ocd symptoms like, washing hands repeatedly ,checking door locks, gas valve, switches multiple times,intrusive thoughts about god, violent thoughts about others/self etc
If yes then this is ocd which is tricking you
If yes then this is ocd which is tricking you
But sometimes a random gay thought would come out and i would feel like getting a boner but then i start saying to myself no no please dont get a boner but the more i worry the more it grows although i dont neccesarilly get an full erection but i almost got one it didnt freak me out because i thought it could be a groinal response but it feels real like it feels a little enjoyable but i dont want it and i believe that your sexual orientation has to do with your happiness,i dont give a crap what society thinks i believe if i was gay or bi i would be proud of it but there are times when i have memories and intrusive thoughts and i get depressed but when i prove my straightness i get really happy.
anxiety, doubting, checking these are common symptoms of ocd. ocd can come in any form and in a life term of a person it changes its themes several times. Regarding your problem if your were gay then you would have enjoyed sexual feeling about men instead of hating them,you were not able to gain full erection by gay porn because simply you are a heterosexual man suffering from ocd .Your brain is checking your memories whether you have liked men in your past, because you are not able to know why suddenly your brain is filled with these thoughts.Hence you are checking through your memory, guys in gym and gay porn. But since in ocd the doubt never gets away, you will never be able to get a satisfying answer.
So in my opinion you should consult a professional because ocd will not get away on its own, it will keep on torturing you, so its better to look for help.
So in my opinion you should consult a professional because ocd will not get away on its own, it will keep on torturing you, so its better to look for help.
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