Bizarre symptoms that make me miserable

[JimmySchwann]

This is likely going to make me sound insane, but I'm going to try my best to explain it. I have this odd tick where it feels like I have to orgasm all the time. Not physically, but mentally. After I orgasm, I get a sense of relief and the OCD related stress goes away... For a little while at least. After that, my mind stresses out over when I'm going to have to orgasm next, and worrying about the answer to that question is just about all I mentally do. Eventually, my body gets nervous and does this odd squeeze thing where I feel a tightness around my lower pelvic region. For some reason, this makes my mind and body think that I need to have an orgasm to get to a relaxed state. The problem is, this happens all the time, and I don't have the time nor energy to accommodate it. When I try to ignore what my mind tries to tell me, my body fights me as well.

This is where the nightmare begins. When I ignore the said feeling, my mind goes into a mental trance where I feel lethargic and groggy, and have trouble functioning. I also feel miserable and nauseous, and sometimes get stomach pains.

Worrying about this issue and it's side effects have consumed my life for the past few months, and I just really want my quality of life back.

I'd like to talk to somebody, but the issue is so embarrassing and unusual, I'm afraid they'd think I was lying or over exaggering an issue.

Any advice on how to overcome this mental tic would be greatly appreciated. I also believe that I have severe Ocd related to this issue.

In addition, this problem is throwing my work and school life into a bad place due to all the worrying that I'm doing.

[JGF25]

Hi there....OCD comes out in many forms and yes it is different for everybody.  What I can tell you is that you cannot tell a therapist anything they haven't already heard before.  As bizarre as you might think this is, I'm sure they have heard of it before.  It is best to go this route because it is obviously become a strain on your life and you need to learn how to deal with the thoughts.  I do wonder though if it is like my problem which was feeling like I had to go to the bathroom all the time.  I'd go and then walk out and feel like I had to go right back in.  I had to stop myself from doing that because I knew it wasn't rational.  When I stopped doing it, yes there is anxiety and you need to learn controlled breathing to help you get through this as well as some self-coaching.  The key is to stop the behavior.  The more you give in the longer it will stay around.  

[JimmySchwann]

And just to add, this is all non sexual. None of the feelings of having to orgasm are due to sexual arousal, just pure OCD.