Can't get the thoughts out of my head, and it's driving me crazy!

I'm bit sure this is where I should even be at this point, but I thought maybe putting my story out there might help. It's an involved story, but the short and skinny is I was with my ex for about 7 months, we broke up due to differences in what we wanted in life. The most important thing I can tell you here is she has turner syndrome. I don't know much about it, but a symptom is they are nearly 100% infertile. She flat out told me she couldn't have kids which is fine with me. But I'm a safe guy anyway. The last time we were together, my condom broke and at a really inopportune time.  Since we have broken up, I haven't been able to get these thoughts out of my head that one day she's going to call up and tell me she's pregnant. And they're driving me crazy!  I did talk to her and asked her if she would take a teat for peace of mind, but she responded with a "you've got to be joking" remark. It's been about 4 months and randomly the day to day, minute to minute questions are, what if I'm the miracle dad?  What if she doesn't know she's pregnant?  The Internet is full of info and that's probably my mistake for my repeated research, but you constantly run into people posting they knew people who didn't know they were pregnant until they had the child. Naturally I have myself convinced that's the cast here. So that's my story, I'd be happy to elaborate if need be. I would lime to kbowbif there are any women on here that have had children in the past, do you feel different 4 months in?  Thanks for taking the time to read.

[pokerhands]

i think those are normal thoughts. i know myself i get worried about that all the time especially if something went wrong during sex. I think she responded " you've got to be joking" because  of her syndrome and the fact that she may have actually thought you were making fun or just didnt even want to entertain the idea. As for the research on the internet , you can find anything out there and it only makes it worse most of the time because you hear these wierd stories because that is what pops up first when you are looking. I would think you are fine. I do not know alot about the syndrome but im sure if she didnt get her period in four months she would have mentioned something about it. Im sure your fine but if it is really becoming something that is becoming a problem for you and giving you stress then i would call her and explain the whole situation to her because im sure she still cares about you . hope the advice helped, feel free to replie. have a good night

[Eddierebel]

Thanks for your comments.  I know I'm not the only person who deals with OCD, but chatting with others about it makes it very real to me that I'm not.  So thanks!  

You're so right about the internet, I never really thought about the the odd stories being the things that pop up first. It's kind of like plane crashes, you never hear about the ones that landed safely.  

I would love to contact her, but she doesn't want to hear from me.  I have to respect that.  

Thanks again for your comments!