(especially paper, cardboard, sandpaper, wood/doors)
Age:17
Gender: Female.
I have had the following problem since childhood, however it's now only getting worse and worse (it could be due to my lack of sleep and increase of stress that it is getting worse)
I am very sensitive to the feel of paper or anything like it with a "dry feel". I want to use a transparency paper to put under my hand to write, but that is not always the available option. Just looking at a person who is touching/rubbing hand against dry matierials (PAPER!!!DOORS!!) drives me wild. Even the thought alone of dry things rubbing against each other, and the flashback of it happening recently (along with the sound) makes all my hairs stand up and gives me the shivers. I get shooting pains through my teeth. I really hate the sound of paper, too!
For example, when making a paper airplane, you have to slide your finger across the paper to flatten it, but I get light headed, angry and all the symptoms I listed above and below to the point of almost passing out when i see or even think of stuff like that.
Commonly felt Symptoms:
My teeth starts clenching, my back neck contracts and my head pushes backwards. I feel something running down my back neck and after a while it calms down. My fist clenches hard as well.
My skin is normally dry so it creates a bigger problem for me. I feel like I always need moisture on my hand (specially fingertips). I use lotions with very high consistency to deal with this problem, because I got to touch paper in order to study/do homework. I always wear socks because my feet feels irritated when it steps on the dry carpet. Wet, oily, soft cotton textures help to calm me down.When dealing with paper, I have to rub my index finger together with my thumb extremely hard to try to make moisture. I know that sounds wild... but it is just instinct. Very bizarre.
I've searched a lot about it, and a lot of people feel the same way as I do! HOWEVER, there is no cure,solution or even an identification to this disease/disorder.
P. S: It is not Xerophobia, the symptoms are nothing close to what I feel.
Please guys, I need help! ASAP! Is this some sort of OCD? What can be done to cure it? What is this called?
Thank you.