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so bad. I cant stand if someone touches my head. I dont know what to do. it sounds like a freak telling someone that you can't stop picking. But, I think after I pick I do feel better.
But i understand the frustration and embarassment of it all. My family can't stand it because they think it looks disgusting, which adds to the guilt of the behavior. They don't understand and say "Just stop" but that's easier said than done. I was diagnosed 4 years ago with severe depression, Bipolar II and PTSD, although I've been suffering from the 3 with symptoms since I was 16 but did not get help until later.
When I told my doctor about my compulsive scalp picking, first she said to "cut my nails" but that does not help. Or wear mittens and a beanie =).....but that does not solve the underlying cause of the behavior itself. It's under "trictillomania" which is compulsive hair pulling even though I don't directly sit there and pull my hair out. The deep picking/bleeding/scab cycle eventually results in a small bald spot.
I always found it a relieving and satisfying point in my day when I get to finally sit down alone and pick. I have blamed the condition on the bad eczema that plagues the rest of my body but if the scabs did exist because of the eczema it still didn't excuse the compulsive picking. I suggest that you speak with your primary care physician about prescription shampoos or steroids to help speed the healing of your scalp, cut your finger nails, think how bad you would feel if you ended up with permanent bald spots and possibly work with a counselor or psychologist to get to what is really behind all of this.
I recently contracted a skin fungus on my back and face and in researching it came to find out that my scalp condition was associated with the yeast Malassezia furfur. My doctor prescribed a pill that women take for yeast infections. The medication combined with alternating use of Selsun Blue and Head & Shoulders shampoos has eliminated my problem. For the first time in 20 years my scalp is clear and I don't have the urge to pick at it! I have determined that it was not a test of my will power after all; I simply had an infection that was never properly addressed.
I know there is a lot of misleading and unhelpful information out there on this difficult to discuss topic and I hope this helps you to have a clear scalp as well. Best of luck.
JD
I figured that I couldnt be the only person in the world who does this, but seeing just how many people there are that have this same strange obsession makes me feel a little less weird!
PS- I was picking the whole time I was reading through all of these posts and I am going to continue to read on and pick on!
I completely relate to what others have said about a trance-like state that occurs while doing this. I remember my mom and grandma yelling at me for it as a kid, but I really couldn't stop.
Has anyone had any success quitting this habit without drugs? I have found it helps to keep my nails short, or to paint them so that I don't want to mess them up. I have been able to stop for periods of a few months, but always start up again, usually after or during a particularly stressful event. I really want to stop this, not just for myself, but because now I am seriously grossing out my husband!