Okay, then you take your OCD diagnosis and remind yourself, constantly if you have to, that they are only OCD thoughts and they are not real.
I went on vacation. I didn't want to drive because I had a panic attack the last time I went to this vacation spot...really stupid thought. I drove anyway and I did have panic because it was all I was thinking about. I dealt with the panic in the way I always do...I breathe through it. After about 15 minutes I drove the rest of the way panic free. I reminded myself I was bringing it on by my thoughts, that I drive everyday on the highway, and that I can do it without panicing.
Self-talk, self-motiviation, makes all the difference. Give it a try.
Therapy of sum sort but don't have money 4 that
Your diagnosis tells you everything. All the thoughts are from your OCD. You are testing yourself again. That is how the brain unfortunately works when there is a thought that is bothering us. You need to remind yourself constantly "this is only an OCD thought, it isn't real." Repeat that out loud when you can or just in your head every time you have one of these thoughts. I'm glad you finally saw a doctor and got an official diagnosis. What did he/she tell you the next step was?