H-OCD is killin me !!

[red4ever]

i to have and had these problems i cant believe how people both male and female have this illness, i tend to pick up things or say things and then find myself doing the same thing to convince myself that i done the action right, ive also takin alot of social drugs in the past and of late aswell (ecstasy tablets, coke) not sure if thats caused my ocd to spiril out of control i hate myself for doin it, ive got a stunning girlfriend who i love and i am physically and sexualy attracted to when im with her sexually it all feels so so right and very very good !!! i have 2 beautiful kids to my girlfriend i love all 3 of them to bits . I WOULD'NT EVER OR WILL EVER DO ANYTHING WITH A MALE its not what i want to do with my life when im out with my mates i cant stop lookin at girls i look at girls not to convence myself that im normal but because my natural instincts is that i like to look at girls, (i dont cheat on my girlfriend), i NEVER look at a lad in a sexual way yet i seem to put myself though this terrible pain and delusional state of mind i know its not reel but i cant for the life of me get it out of my mind , im now gettin some therapy help, i to think that my OCD has caused this obsessive madness coz thats all that it is MADNESS. i would rather kill myself than cross over to the side !! gay people are gay coz they like livin a gay life style thats up to them but its not what i want !! (what is the most common NHS drug people are takin for this madness does it help and can anybody help ??

[lavem]

bros, you gotta fukn help, its been a bit over a week im having these thoughts if i was gay, since i was a kid ive always loved girls, NEVER EVER a guy, wldnt even cross my mind, ive been with my girlfriend for a year now, who i deeply love, all of a sudden this happens, what if im gay, im hoping its hocd and tat im not rly gay, i fukking hope im not. i feel like if i go out wit a guy and tell everyone im gay, ill be more comfortable, what the *** does tat mean, plse dont tell me im gay, tell me i have hocd, how come i feel like wen i admit im gay (which im hoping im not) ill be all better, PLSE HELP, ive never done anyting wit a guy nor will i ever do, but why these thoughts? i freaking out, i wanna get married and have kids one day, another question can u change and turn from loving girls to loving guys? is tat possible? plse help, im begging for a quick answer, maybe ill feel better if i know i have hocd and tat im not G** (ps., 3 days bfor these thoughts i was having oral sex wit my gf, and i loved it, so why is tis happening?) i dont feel the same towrds girls, i find them gorgeos, but smting in my mind says NO your not, then i tink i like men, WHAT THE *** BRO!!!!

[nowhatsup]

hey,  i went through the same thing several times.  its only going to get worse if you keep compulsing.  by that im sure ur looking at guys trying to test urself and see if ur gay or you have a thought and u try to overturn it with some rational thought sayin ur not gay.  its a vicious cycle that only gets better with work and i mean ur going to have to let urself suffer a lot for a short amount of time to make it better in the long run.  by not trying to overturn an irrational thought with a rational one.  you kep doing that then eventually that rational thought wont help anymore.  if you have a thought where u think that guys handsome then roll with the thought it means nothing.  the fact is is that to beat it you have to let it go.  trust me its the only way.  its 20%meds and 80% you.  you have to be disaplined in the matter talkin about it only helps for a little then its back to misery.  if you see a therapist only due it for the med perscription and get the hell out.  bes wishes my friend itll be over soon.

[Tangled]

If you read around in here you will see a pattern. We all suffer from ridiculous, repetitive and intrusive thinking/actions. It's the OCD that causes these silly thoughts, and try as you might you just can't keep them away. They sneak into your head and taunt you. They cause self-doubt. You know that it's not logical to think you're gay, you're attracted to women, but your OCD sneaks those self-doubt feelings into your mind. You need to understand that it's the OCD talking and not you. It's an anxiety disorder, that's why it's causing you so much grief. I understand what you're going through as I have a severe form of it too. My fear is over cancer. It consumes my brain most of the time, even though I know I am being irrational I still cannot let it go! Once again, OCD has a sneaky way of taking control of your mind.

If you do not feel sexually attracted to men, then you're not gay. Period. It's just the OCD messing with you. There is help available to help get a handle on this...and trust me, if you don't try and take control of your OCD it's only going to get worse and end up taking control of you....entirely. There's no reason to suffer. There are medications and therapy techniques that can and do help people. Try to see a Psychiatrist if possible, they are the experts in this field.

Hang in there! With the right help this can get better!