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HOCD or am I full out gay?
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HOCD or am I full out gay?

My entire life I've been turned on by girls and have had no trouble. I can't lose my erection while hooking up with a girl. I have a strong desire to get a girlfriend, have sex (im a virgin though), touch girls, and etc. The problem is, I also think I'm gay. I have never wanted to hu with a guy or anything because the thought disgusts me, and I feel even if I did do it I would have a ton of remorse. I watch gay porn often and get very turned on from it. I do not know whether that is a sexual attraction or not because in real life, I am not attracted to men at all. I can appreciate a good looking guy, but that's only since I've been having these thoughts of possibly being gay. In real life, it seems like the gay thoughts just disappear. Online, I talk to many girls but no guys. I've never tried to get pictures from other guys, it disgusts me. I am attracted to girls, but whenever these thoughts come back I temporarily lose my attraction to them. I have a mix of many straight romance dreams and occasional gay dreams. I usually do not look at men sexually, but now since these thoughts have been getting worse it's like a conscious effort on my mind, to sexualize men when naturally I feel I do not do it. Now I feel like it's also a conscious effort to be turned on visually by a woman too. In real life, I do not have this problem. When i hook up with girls I usually have no problem getting hard.
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May I ask your age? Any guy can appreciate a good looking dude. I'm not gay but hey I'm willing to bet most girls will think Channing tatum is better looking than me. I've talked and met to many gay people. Most said they knew from a very young age. 10-15. And they KNEW. just giving you some of my background on it. Only you'll know if you are gay or not
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