HOCD please help w/ obsessive compulsive disorder?

Hi im a 17 year old female and Im struggling with ocd right now. Ive been diagnosed twice before and have had  obsessions in the past. All through out my life ive had fears of contamination and diseases such as HIV, diabetes, cancer, herpes the list goes on. I also struggled with  anorexia and bulimia and was basically weight obsessed for 3 years constantly checking how much I weighed. Ive recently recovered but now i constantly keep fearing im a lesbian. I dont feel like I am because I have had crushes and sexually fantasies about men. I also think about them when i masturbate srry if thats tmi. I keep having intrusive thoughts about being a lesbian. Im starting to get anxious around anyone thats a girl. I was never told that homosexuality was wrong and I come from an open minded family.Is this OCD or am I really gay? I dont feel like I am but my head wont shut up and wants to think about this all the time Im getting really stressed. Please help?

[kristin_b]

Hey
I know what your going through. I have OCD and I went through this too. I have always been obsessed with men my entire life and then one day in high school out of no where I just started getting these thoughts what if I'm becoming a lesbian. I was so confused because I didnt know what was going on because all my life I had thought of nothing but boys and all the sudden I was questioning my sexuality out of no where. I would get stressed out anytime I thought a girl was pretty because I thought that meant I was a lesbian but then I did some research and although I have never heard of HOCD before I realized it was my OCD because I realized I have never been attracted to a girl, never wanted to be sexual with a girl and never wanted to be with a girl so that must mean I wasnt a lesbian. It was hard to push the thoughts out of my head but I when the thoughts would come I would sing a song or think of something and they would come back but I push them out again agian and again until they finally stopped. It is your OCD just remember that!!!! Try different to push it out of your head. Your focusing on it thats why it wont stop but they will. Hope this helped.