HOCD vs. denial

I am 19 years old and i am wondering if i am in denial or i have HOCD.  I have had crushes on women my entire life and i've always wanted to be with one.  i've never dated before but i always wanted to do so.  Recently, I got this image in my head that i may either have HOCD or i may be in denial.  I do not think guys are attractive but i can't look at them without feeling weird about it.  i would also get these images in my head thinking that i may be homosexual but i keep telling myself that i am not.  i prefer watching women pornography and i am easily aroused by it.  This has really had an effect on my mentally and physically and i am tired of fighting these thoughts.  i feel like sooner or later i may just give in to these thoughts.

[iceman45]

What do you guys think

[MT86]

dude, you're perfectly fine my man, I'm no therapist but I can tell you one thing, I been through what you're going through and it sux but at the same time, only you know in your heart of if your gay or not, do you listen to thoughts that tell you "jump off the bridge, commit suicide, rob a bank" it's all thoughts, you'd know if you were gay, you wouldn't be as happy with a woman as a partner, you wouldnt' think about a future with a woman if you were gay, and if you were, you wouldn't be scared of being gay, you'd be scared of others finding out, or how you're going to come out, or finding it hard to find a relationship. I hope that helps man