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[Rmac22]

I'm 15, about a month ago I had this thought about stabbing my grandma, but I didn't feel any guilt or anything like I usually did. This really panicked me and I have just obsessed about why I would think like that every single minute of the day for the past month. Everything before this, my life was perfect. But now one day I had this thought that I would enjoy stabbing someone; anyone. And I fear that I am going to become a sociopath or phsyco. I get urges to do these thoughts, and I feel like a horrible person. I don't fear having these thoughts anymore, I just fear that if I did them, which I never would, that I would want to do it and actually enjoy it. It's made me lose interest in everything... I absolutely loved basketball but even that can't keep my mind off of it.

[Riley190]

No problem. Tell me how it goes.

[Rmac22]

Thanks man

[Riley190]

Hey dude. First thing, you realize that what you're thinking is wrong. This is the first step to realizing you're not going crazy, and you still have control of yourself.  What I would do is tell someone. This is the best way to go. Seek a parent/guardian and ask if you could see a psychologist about your thoughts. This is OCD. My sister dealt with almost the same situation as you, but she went to a pshcologist and they helped a lot. Good luck