I go to happy ending massage again and this time i already chose to fight the fear...if i dont fight this mental illness than it might ruins my future....i have been suffering this ocd since i was kid...stomach problem and chronic fatigue is my misery everyday...fighting ocd with exposure to what you fear is the best medicine...i suffered many types of ocd...not curing this disease will sure ruin my future..i have read many stories about ocd ruins people marriage etc...so fighting it with exposure sure will cure it...im 100% sure about what i was doing
Im trying to fight this ocd thought...but it's really hard...the fear is killing me...other people can go to have happy ending massage without fear...but for ocd sufferer is a hell..it looks like i can feel hiv everywhere..
You know, this is a forum for obsessive compulsive disorder so I will stick to that. You are posting here so must realize your fear is irrational. What do you do to treat the ocd? It's a disorder/illness like any other. You'd treat the hiv if you had it, right? So, take your ocd seriously and get help! A psychiatrist would be important, psychologist and possibly medication. No reason to live this way with irrational fear. Also, a good dose of education on HIV would help you. You can't get HIV from anything you describe. In my reading, HIV is passed from person to person when they have unprotected intercourse, either vaginal or anal or if they share drugs using IV needles. Moms can pass it to their babies through breast milk (doesn't happen with adults). All the other ways you propose are not even risks for HIV. See a doctor for your ocd!
Do you have certain symptoms that you think are related to the virus?