Hocd or am I just repressing my feelings ?

[Sweetheartgirl]

I feel like I'm repressing but I so don't wanna. Be with a woman I don't wanna be with a woman so bad, but these thoughts make me feel like I might enjoy sexual activities but I don't want them to happen I feel like I will like these things and that's where I start obsessing again. I hate having these thoughts I no longer get anxious and now I feel like I'm repressing my feelings and I just get scared, my therapist says that she doesn't believe I'm bi but I can't stop questioning I don't even want to question myself anymore.. Please someone tell me it's ocd I don't wanna be bi so much :( I think I would kill myslef if I was but what's the difference between repressed homosexuality and ocd. I don't want to feel this way j don't like thinking about girl, but I feel like I like it but I don't but how can I know:( I don't want do anything to prove myself