I have a OCD thaught 24-7

[ArmaniKydd]

Ive recently had an anxiety attack for a stupid reason, i thaught i would die in my sleep..it was very stupid, and i wish i could go back in time to change that. But now i think i have an OCD thaught..like constantly during the day i have a word stuck in my head..whenever i see something that scares me anything related to death, killing etc. it gets stuck in my head for example: i had the word graveyard, or cemetary in my head today and i could see it spelled out in the back of my head, when i spoke to people that word was in back of my head, when i would eat, when i would type, and i dont know what to do

[bosnianworrier]

How about seeing a doctor?

[ArmaniKydd]

i wanted to, then it all stopped but it started again much worse..everything reminds me of something connected to death its crazy

[Sarah1277]

I get this anxiety too and I know some friends who have it. When I lay in bed at night, I'm afraid my heart will just stop for no reason while I'm sleeping, which makes going to bed kind of scary, which is why, no matter how tired I am, sometimes I'm up until all hours. When I was a teenager I would be totally distracted when I talked to people because I would picture what they looked like dead, but I didn't want them to die. These thought made me want to crawl out of my skin and be someone else. I am not diagnosed with OCD, but I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Seems like it might be a good idea to go to your doctor, or a therapist and don't be ashamed. I talk to my therapist about my obesession with death a lot and she says it's perfectly natural to think about death and worry about it, because it's an unknown that every human faces. The thing is, if you're very sensitive to things, or if you do have a disorder, then these thoughts may haunt you more than someone without a disorder, so you worry about them more. My mother used to tell me I was always worrying about things out of my control while "normal" people worried about what to have for dinner. This was during my teenage years and I really thought I was losing my mind. Thank God for the internet and for the fact we can share now with people who have similar feelings and thoughts. Therapy and/or meds might help, but talk to your doctor or therapist and see what they say. They won't judge you or think it's weird, they probably deal with thoughts like yours more than you realize. Wishing you the best. I totally understand what you're going through and hope you find the help you need.