I just started to really notice I may have ocd

[Kappa321]

I'm a 32 year old married women with 1 child..for the pastfew years this ocd or whatever it is has just about consumed my life..it's an ocd that causes me to look at people inappropriately it really makes me have anxiety..i wanted to kill my self a few times because of this. It's destroying me an keeping me in isolation..it's offensive to people because it's offensive to me..i cry myself to sleep trying to resolve this involuntarily gential starring. Not a star but a look..i don't want this but I can't control it.I try to look people in the eyes but I'm shy too..I think this happened because of me being shy..looking down and I'm short so my eyes look like they are zoomed in on everyone crotch..i hate it..it happens to family too so I don't go around much because I don't want to continue to offend people..it hurts me soooo deeply I need real help..I'm still living because I always think of my daughter she's 10.. I noticed this in 2010 the more I try to find a solution the worse it gets..People cross there legs or cover here crotches this gives me such a heart break. I'm no pervert my brain won't stop this crap!!what should I does any have a clue as to what this is..I mean I didn't have this before 2010 I just want my dam life bk:-(

[Kappa321]

Thanks for the encouragement

[JGF25]

Absolutely what Journey42 said.  There is nothing you can tell the psychologist that they have not already heard before.  There is nothing to be embarrassed about.  I said the exact same thing to my psychologist and she assured me that I could not shock her and so I let it all out and trust me there were some really weird thoughts I was letting out AND getting help with.  Please consult your psychologist again.  

[journey42]

I went to a psychologist for my ocd and it really helped. Don't be afraid to talk to someone. They're there to help. It helped me to remember that I am not my OCD. It helped me to manage compulsions.

[Kappa321]

I did attempt but I was absolutely too embarrassed to tell her what my problem was:(

[JGF25]

Have you ever sought help from a psychologist?