Is something wrong with me?

[pinkflower9]

Hi I wrote on here before I'm just a little scared today, I been having this thing for the past days where I haven't been panicking much and it's scaring the crap out of me because I just feel like now I'm in denial and it's become to a point where I feel like I've turned gay because I want to get the thoughts out of my head but the thoughts make me think I don't. I just feel a little bit like I'm numb and it's been like that for days.

[JGF25]

Believe it or not....as an OCD person we are supposed to just let the thoughts wash over us like we don't care about them.  The reality is the more attention we pay to them, the more anxious we get.  So if we can bore ourselves with the thoughts, then we have won so to speak.  Don't over-analyze why they don't bother you so much anymore...just be happy!  

[pinkflower9]

Also I keep thoughtsvtekking me to come out and there making me scared to cause there making me panic because it telling me to come out but to what I'm not gay and thoughts and feeling feel so really I'm really doubting my myself i sound gay even saying that, these thoughts have been going on for so long I feel like I've become gay.