Is this HOCD?? Or am I slightly another sexual orientation?? Need Help

[TimAG]

About a year and a half ago is when this all started. One night I was watching television, nothing special, just some talk show or something I think. But I remember having an anxiety attack and overcome with this fear that I may be gay/bi. Just all of a sudden it hit me. I don't even know where it stemmed from. I have absolutely nothing against someone who is gay/bi, as a matter of fact I have had a couple of friends that are. It's just, for as long as I can remember, I've always been straight, my very first crush was when I was in 2nd grade and it was a girl I'm 110% sure of that. I was molested by one of my uncles when I was 3 or 4, I don't know if that would have anything to do with the HOCD or not, but I have never had any kind feelings for a male, other than friendship wise. I looked at some pictures of attractive like guys to see if I'd get aroused. Honestly the only feeling I had was shock at it. But it's at times that it feels like I'm being aroused by looking at something that is gay related, but I check myself, and I'm not aroused, if anything I'm turned off. I watch porn (straight) pretty often and I have absolutely no problem being aroused by it. I've read around on the Internet about this and I've seen stuff about HOCD. I read more into it, and I'm almost positive that I have it, though I haven't been diagnosed. I've read that porn is big in fueling HOCD, and that it's best to detox yourself from it and stop overthinking. I would, but I'm not 100% sure that HOCD is what I'm dealing with. Am I wrong? What is going on??

[JGF25]

This is my take on being gay or not...it is genetic.  You are either born gay or you are not.  You can't one day wake up and be gay.  People that are gay realize it and don't fight it the way people with OCD do.  And for the record this is probably the biggest thought people with OCD have.  And it works both ways....gay people are afraid they are going to become straight!  

Things trigger OCD thoughts and it could be from the molestation.  Does anyone else know?  Did you talk to a psychologist about it?  Also, testing is bad.  Testing is doing anything to see if you get aroused.  No porn, no pictures.  Stop testing all together.  The reality is if you said "I'm gay" right now would you want to go out and get a boyfriend and be intimate with him?  If the answer is no, then you cannot possibly be gay.  

[TimAG]

Thank you so much for responding. My thinking is a lot clearer now, I know now how to combat this. And no I haven't talked to anyone about it...I don't want to cause a huge uproar over it...it doesn't feel worth that. But you really helped me to think more clearly about going about this. Thanks again.