"I can handle my obsessions" but yet you follow that up with "How needle puncture wound look like? I remember this abrasion was so superficial that i had to press hard on it to see blood. But needle wound would hurt and be deeper next day?" This tells me that you cannot handle your obsessions. But hey, all I can do it point you in the right direction...I can't make you go there. I also cannot tell you what a needle puncture would look like and whether you have had one or not.
Reassurance seeking will not get you anywhere. It will only make you feel better for a short period of time and then you will be back at it again. Until you learn how to deal with the thoughts, unfortunately you are going to be stuck where you are.
Yes, i have access to a psychologist. But i don't think i need psychologist. I can handle my obsessions. How needle puncture wound look like? I remember this abrasion was so superficial that i had to press hard on it to see blood. But needle wound would hurt and be deeper next day?
Hi there...sorry you are going through this. The reality is, I cannot look at a picture and say whether you got poked by something. The more likely scenario is that you fell, bumped into something, etc. since you were drunk.
When people have HIV anxiety they will attribute anything to HIV. You are stuck in the "What if" cycle of thinking. Making stuff up as you go along.
You said your English is poor so where are you from? Do you have access to a psychologist?