OCD confessing

[dafigu01]

So Im going to make this as short as possible. I believe I suffer from OCD I have a super guilty conscience and I constantly feel the need to confess things. This I know I should confess and I already have.

So I have been with my girlfriend for two years. A little after our first year I cheated on her. I didn't have sex with her at least I dont think I did and I finally confessed to my girlfriend after 10 months. The girl actually stayed the night in my room I know it sounds pretty unbelievable that I didnt have sex with her but there really wasn't that sexual interest and it wasn't a premeditated thing she had came over with friends to visit my roommate and I allowed her to sleep in my bed. how naive of me but anyways I told my girlfriend what happened which was everything but sex and oral sex and of course naturally she lost trust in me an naturally she didn't believe that was the whole story. So when I told her I was 100% sure of what happened at least I thought I was after having me swear on my life and promise to god I started having major uncertainty but i dont remember having sex at all. It's like my mind is placing thoughts in my head to counteract what i originally said. All in all after that incident occurred I remember getting tested for std's twice and I remember being worried what if I got something while rubbing on each other. That was my only concern so I know that i didn't have sex but my OCD is just poisoning my head with doubts.

[RainLover71]

Thats what the mind does sadly,it focuses on the thing we dwell on the most and it ignores the other issues.

[dafigu01]

yeah its really getting to me it seems as if my other issues like constant bad thoughts seems to have taken a back seat to this

[RainLover71]

You need to be diagnosed as having OCD--this is a guilt issue I believe.