OCD or HIV phobia?

     Call me crazy but it just ruined my life recently,I almost desperated. I just read a report that ppl may have risk contracting HIV from barber shop. I feel my world is crashed after I saw this. 7 years ago when I was 15,I got ear hurt by electric shear during the haircut process. when I was hurt I noticed that it's broken somewhere so I can got hurt. Since it's a defective shear, I think it's likely that the previous customer got hurt too. And the barber seemed reckless, don't sterilize it. some ppl say even that odds happened, I still not at risk, cuz HIV live poorly outside host, blood will dry and HIV dies for like few minutes during the my haircut process. However, there also someone say HIV not that fragile, can live in blood outside host up to hours to days at least and keep activation.
    I just can't help myself imagine this: previous customer got hurt too,she or he HIV+, blood still wet, I got infected,I'm the only one in the world contracting HIV like this, and this happened 7 years ago, I don't have much time to live. And when I realize this I fear for testing HIV antibody.Therefore, I'm live in pain,extremely fear and can't get out of the system... What should I do...

[LIZZIE LOU]

i am glad you are posting on this forum...maybe you will get some help.

you have been told REPEATEDLY that you were never at risk and that your fears are unwarranted.  we usually dont tell ppl to test over no risk situations...but 7 years is waaaaaaay too long to be carrying this around with you.  man up...go test...IT WILL BE NEGATIVE ! ! ! ! !  

oh yeah...do the rapid oral test...i dont want you coming back thinking that the needle was dirty or reused.  what you have been fearing all this time...can be put to rest in just 20 minutes.  over and done with...20 minutes.

[Timothy2009]

Many thanx.Sorry my poor English, hope it didn't make you have problem understanding me.I've been tortured for like a month,live in fear.I wanna back to days I was happy.I'm a coward, afraid of test, but if I don't take it,I'll die of mental disease.I'm sure I'll get NEGATIVE report. I don't wanna be like this situation anymore.