Im panicking, my OCD is making me doubt my sanity... I feel I'm becoming paranoid, I feel so bad and depressed, I don't want to become paranoid :( I feel like crying... Are these only intrusive thoughts? Why did I doubt my ex intentions and now fearing so much? Ok my ex lied to me since the very beginning, my fear is mostly of the thought itself, meaning I get panicky because Im thinking this way and deep inside I know it isnt true.. Ive been panicking about being paranoid since a month now, and after I learned my ex was lying to me since 7 months about everything between us I started supposing extreme things like what if even had a different job and wanted to do me harm too since I only saw lies eventually. I feel very sad and depressed, why am I thinking like that? I am still going out and talking to strangers and laughing with people I meet, but I fear is paranoia gradual? Will I stop going out and doubt everything and everyone? I feel so bad I cant take it anymore!!! Does it start gradually?????? I even dreamed I was kidnapped tonight which made me wake up very anxious!!! Please tell me what do u think? Am I going psychotically paranoid? My Doc says it will never happen then what is wrong with me????