Seriouse Problem And Need Someone To Talk To

[worried4nothing]

Im miserable i have to literally fight these fears to type what i choose.Im afraid if contracting diseases from everything.How my mind works from wake up to bedtime.I awake usually with a sequence that if i dont do right i will get a disease.No your going to say just dont do it right.

Well it seems everytime i try to fight it something bad happens and theres been plenty for example one day i fought the thoughts and i got feces on my hand from a restroom sink.Or the time i was telling myself to use a certain restroom at a football stadium and i ignored it and the sink i almost washed my hands in my covered with blood.

These things keep happening when i ignore the thoughts i dont know why then i think there warnings or something like im being spoken to by somebody.

I go through psychotic routines all day if a movie has a scene with blood i have to shut it off or rewind and look away when the blood is there.Im afraid of restaurants gotta eat at a specific mcdonalds have habit at looking at the workers hands for cuts.Afraid to shake hands with people or keep my eyes open when they talk to me.

I bleach everything and have ruined my clothes.If my boots touch my pants i must shower thinking i stepped on something contaminated.I wont shave everyday i do it like once a week unless i force myself to thinking im going to get a disease if my razor touched anything.I dont brush my teeth anymore because im a afraid toothbrushes.

I think my brother has hepatitis so im afraid of everything he touches or my father to.I wont eat dinner at my house or at anyones especially if they dont have a dishwasher.If my food thats sealed in a package touches anything suspicious i wont eat it.I get mad when the guy at my supermarket touches the top of my soda bottle.

I have lost 45 pounds due to eating 1 cheeseburger a day since this all started 5 months ago.

The other day i cut myself with a dollar bill now im really paranoid and i dont want to live this way my friends and family avoid me make fun of me even my nephew that once looked up to me.

[flob]

have you gone to a doctor?

[worried4nothing]

About the dollar or about my fears

[flob]

your fears

[chelle_1]

Hi, you have ocd, and need a psych consult, do not be afraid, all your symtoms are very common, but very hard to live with. Medication with cbt therapy will help alot.   chelle_1

[georgia808]

i know ocd is hell because i am curently going through it. and it sounds like you have ocd in repulsive thoughts.seek help because trust me, just confiding in someone is not enough.I suggest you to see a psychiatrist and maybe try some meds it might help reduce your scary thoughts.good luck.