Hello , I had this exact problem like 4 months ago , mine lasted like 2 weeks but I had high anxiety , panic .... fear ... duh JUST HELL ! I don't know what to tell you ... Of course it's just OCD that's VERY CLEAR ! I wanted to let you know that you are not the only one .. Now I struggle with HOCD and Religious OCD ... You need help .. that's the key .. find a good psychiatrist ! Remember that you are sick .. A transsexual doesn't have anxiety and stuff ... and you can't be transsexual just like that , sitting on the couch and BOOM you suddenly are transsexual .. neah ... and I assure you that transsexual people don't feel like you do right now ..I struggled with many things ...5-6 months ago I had anxiety and questions about everything that made me feel good ... like music .. Whenever I would listen to music I would get retarded questions about music and anxiety straight from hell .. I had problems with feeling good ... Whenever I felt good I would ask myself why do I like to feel good ? And that question made me feel like I don't actually like to feel good .. OCD is just very confusing .. stay true to yourself somehow .. remember before that night who you were .. THAT IS YOU my friends .. that guy from the past .. You are just sick ! Good luck finding a psychiatrist !