Hi, I'm a 15 year old male in High School, and I think I may have a mild case of OCD. It really started a year months ago, when I started to feel depressed and was usually always anxious. A lot of things contributed to these feelings, such as pressure, lonliness and etc. But it got really crappy a few weeks ago, when I started to get violent thoughts and images pop into my head. So essentially, no compulsions, just obsessions.
I always avoided the subject of sucide and things like that, which probably contributed to the OCD. I used to rarely get these thoughts, and when I did, I would just brush it off, and not care about it. But a few weeks ago, I got thoughts that told me to harm myself and the ones around me. They started off as just words, but for the past few days, I've also started to get images.
I am generally a very calm person. I don't know if this is important, but I am not a very assertive person. Sometimes I may have a problem with something, but not say anything, to avoid conflict. I also tend to lose my temper sometimes and get really frustrated, but I would NEVER do anything like my thoughts. I don't understand exactly what is causing this, maybe stress.
What should I do? Because I tend to lose my temper from time to time, there's always the fear of losing control. But I know I would never do anything violent or harm anyone. Because I obsess over these violent thoughts, sometimes they affect my dreams, which scare the heck out of me. What should I do? I've been trying some self-help things such as meditation and deep breathing, and I've even cut back on things such as violent video games.