I can't diagnose you on the forum. All I can tell you is that this is a very, very common thought for people that suffer from OCD. In fact, if I had to pick a number one thought people get stuck on, HOCD would be it. Ideally you should see a psychologist so that you can be properly diagnosed and a treatment plan put in place. You don't say how old you are. Are you a juvenile and if so, can you talk to your parents? If you are over 18, do you have access to a psychologist via insurance?
No self diagnosed but i want an answer no this reply
So you have been diagnosed with OCD?