I am breathing and trying to find my logic. Tonight my husband is home, I neve realized how he anchors my OCD. I'll be very happy to have him home :)
You have to go to your logical place and try to get rid of the irrational. There is no way there is going to be that much blood on the ground especially on a sidewalk. So deep down inside you do know...just remind yourself that it just cannot be and therefore you have nothing to worry about and there is no possible way your house or clothing is contaminated. Keep breathing Lola! Take care. J
Thank you to you both.
It was the lenth of the sidewalk, almost like a spill. Bigger than a dinner plate. I'd say prob 2 ft long, the first thought I had was nose bleed. But now that I am not in panic mode, I am thinking that it could have been a spill of sorts... I guess I will never know. It covered about one square of the sidewalk in width and length.
My mind is going to what if it was on the bottom of my shoe, then it touched my pants while I sat ankles crossed at my desk, then when I got home and undressed my hand touched the blood on my pants and now there is blood on my floor and the faucet in my bathub.. and well you get the point. And I am sure can all relate,
Hey there lola--doesn't really matter if it was blood because it's not going to get in your blood stream from the pavement.It will pass,don't worry.
Hi Lola...think about the spot...define "big red splash" to me. Was it the size of a dinner plate, a salad plate, smaller? When people bleed even when it is a large enough cut to actually drip...you will see drips...not a big red splash. Now maybe I am completely misinterpreting your idea of big. But you know that this is all stress related. You had been doing so well. Do the controlled breathing, pull up a meditation video on Youtube and use that, get a book out and start reading and DO NOT let your mind wander. If you start to wander, then say "STOP." You know what to do...you may not feel like it is working right now but you have to keep doing it until it does. Don't let your mind control you but KNOW that you have the control.