disturbing thoughts

[bridgetlisa755]

ive been feeling down and not myself for around 7 months now, it started when i fell out with a partner due to him being violent i was fine i got on with things then 2 months after all of a sudden i started feeling down and depressed. i know what happened hurt and upset me but its not the reason im still down now,  ive been depressed before 2 years ago and had the same thing thats the first time i had these thoughts and inbetween these times i havn't really thought about it at all, and these thoughts have nothing to do with why i was upset in the first place! my thoughts are always about kids i have a son of my own which could be why , i dont no? i see my docter and he says sometimes when your down the things that worry you but are at the back of your mind takeover. but even though i know that makes sence why is something i hate so much in my mind and still there? this is what is now keeping me down i don't know how to stop thinking about it and dont know why its always about kids? id never do anything myself im not worried about that because i know i wouldn't, so why am i thinking about it? Its also stopping me in my career i wanted to work with kids and now feel sometimes i don't want to. I do feel better to what i did by seeing my docter and ive read on sites like this of people with the same thing but it still REALLY bothers me that its still there and don't know how to get rid of it completely.

[bridgetlisa755]

Thanks for all your comments a few people have mentioned OCD ive seen a doctor about this and he hasnt mentioned it being OCD but by the sounds of it it could be. Thanks again

[mum2four]

seeing a phycologist has been a huge help for me as well. My med's have made it easier to brack threw my OCD but I still had to have some one to talk about my obsessions, and get constructive info on how to put better coping methods in place.

While knowing there are people out there that are fighting the same fight as me has been good as well. Nothing really could have replaced my phycologist. I dont have a positive healthy relationship with my family members. Learning how to come to terms with that has been a long process with some set backs. Even if you have a supportive family some times family can feed OCD and anxiety in general even thoe they want you to get better. A supportive family may unknowlingly be giving you obsessions more credit/power because they love you and want to make you feel better. It's hard for family to help a person threw anxiety. You need a person who out side of the situation and can give you a different perpective.

Take care

[hmf099]

i understand what you're going through, I'm going through it pretty deeply myself. terrible thoughts and fears about my loved ones including my daughter. it's scary and it's hard and definantly not something we should go through alone. it's wonderful that you came on here to be with us, our peers are always good support, but i wonder if youre seeing a pro? it helps more than i can say. let us know how youre doing!

[mum2four]

Bad thoughts or images can take control of our minds when we give them power. By paying attention them negatively and getting scared about why we are thinking what we are think the thoughts get stronger. you need to accept that the thoughts are just thoughts and its ok to have them before that get stronger.

The more you can just sit with the thought and be ok with it the better you feel. and it will just go away when you fight with the thoughts they fight back like quick sand and its not fun.

I use to be scared I would hurt my kids sexually and while they were thoughts I new were wrong I still payed to much attention them and they got out of control. I got so scared of loosing my kids or hurting them in some way that it took over my life till the day I ended up on my kitchen floor rocking out of fear of knocking my self out cold to get some silance in my head for once.

Let the thoughts happen just find something funny to say to your self about the thought or image. they reduce intencity when you can ignore them or laugh at them.