hiv testing

[squirt305]

I had an affair. Ever since the affair I obsess with having hiv. I had a test done at 21, 24 and 27 weeks. All which were negative. However, I still think I am having symptoms of hiv. I can't let it go. I am on google all of the time. Are my fears of this OCD??? Or something else maybe? Is there any reason why I should be obsessing? Is it guilt??? Please help!!!!

[LivingwithOCD07]

Perhaps your symptoms could be from feelings of guilt. That definitely could be why you can't find peace in your mind. OCD is stimulated by traumatic experiences, I think a clear conscience would do you good. But that being said, you have the test results, 3 it looks like, seriously, rest! Your fine.

[bottlewater]

I know excatly how you feel. Me I fingered a woman and have been worried about contracting an STD or HIV but I am told its is no risk even talked to a STD conuselor over the phone and said my risk was zero. Testing is the key neg at three months your good to go.

It is the guilt that is getting you and me. It is best to get into therapy for sure it is best to have someone for support. Yuo know I feel great when I can help another when they need it, gives me some self worth. You may be using OCD as a self punishment for the affair. You end up at a point in life that you feel stuck but just can't get over it. Get some help. I would be happy that I tested neg. at 27 weeks way to go!!  

[tiredofthestress]

I understand.  I had an affair 6 years ago and just recently had some symptoms.  I went and had 3 tests done and can't get it through my head that I don't have it.  You don't have it.  It is probably guilt or worry you have maybe given it to your spouse.  I empathize completely.  I have learned some things.  Do not look up symptoms you will only find yourself making yourself worse.  Symptoms are a poor judge of HIV.  Tests are the only sure answer that you do not have it and you have tested negative.  I am going for counseling maybe that will help you too.  It was explained to me that my fears were a symptom of something else (guilt, anxiety, ocd).  Go get help.  It is the only answer.  I have been told over and over I do not have HIV and yet I get scared everytime something goes wrong with me.  Go talk to your dr.  Or go to the clinic and discuss it with a counselor.  Those are all things I am working on.

[metalman999]

me too dude. im on google almost 24/7 looking at the same threads and obsessing.
17 days after my possible encounter i got the stomach flu.
then at 5.5 weeks i got a sore throat that is still going on now 6.5 weeks.
im freaking out. sorry i cant help.