is it HIV OCD OR i should get tested

[Artmesia]

i have been suffering from HOCD since 2 years , with great difficulty , i took few medications and tried to be strong , and i had little HIV fear , like few times , i use to get scared , like not shaking hands with strangers, etc but last weekend i went to clubbing , in the restroom , my earphones packet , its very small fell down in squating commode not the regular western commode, it dint fall in water but on the surface  , so i just picked it up bare hands , i was very drunk ,i was stupid ,i cant forgive myself forever , and i kept it in my pocket and went back ordered beer an rinking then i ralised what if i get HIV  , i dint put my hand in mouth ,i washed my hand and i got drunk more to beat this thought, then after 3 hours when aim going back to home,i put my hand in pocket took the earphones packet and used them after a while without my knowledge i have been bitting my fingers , now iam freakingout will i get STD , i want to go do STD test , i was allways scared of hiv but never got tested , cause i know i was ridiculous, but now i cant get it out of my mind at all cant eat , sleep
should I get tested ,will I get STD?

[JGF25]

Do you know HIV is transmitted?  It is transmitted through unprotected sex with an HIV positive person, through inadvertant needle sticks with HIV tainted blood, and through IV drug use while sharing needles.  What kind of help have you sought out in the past?  You mentioned medication.  Are you still on the medication?  Did you learn cognitive behavioral therapy?  

[Artmesia]

it fell inside , where people squat and **** , iam scared there might be some rectalfluids or semen or some body fluids , I was using medication like escilatopram and clonazepam , which I started a week ago, do you think talking to a professional STD doctor will help me , as iam exchange student ,iam faraway from home , here everything is expensive , I have exams comingup,iamunable to function , this is worst then HOCD ,tell me what should I do now, I have no one to talk

[Artmesia]

no I don't learn CBT , I never told told my psychiatrist about this HIV thing as it was not problematic before

[Artmesia]

iam scared because I used my fingers while smoking an on the waay home I was bitting my fingers this is after 3 hours

[JGF25]

HIV dies when it comes into contact with the air.  So you are not going to get HIV this way.  How about a school counselor?  Can you see somebody on campus?  Also, a psychiatrist prescribes medication but psychologists teach CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy).  also just a statistic for you....if a person were to jab themselves with an HIV infected needle, they have less than a 1% chance of becoming infected.  HIV is very, very hard to contract.  This thought is no different than your HOCD.  You can look at the following books:

Overcoming OCD by Christine Purdon and Self-Coaching by Joseph Luciani