Hi. I'm 15years old and I think I have OCD. I never knew about OCD but I found myself abnormal.
that much yet... I thought there would be any site about OCD on US. I'm here to ask how can I stop those voices messing me.
to tell about my symptoms
once I start to wash hands, soap's must placed on be on left side and toward right side. if it towards left side voice say my familywould get hurt.I have to wash my hand once and trying to place it again. but if I touch wall or
anything during I trying to move soap I have to wash my hands once again and have to start it again. my voices
says people I lovewould get hurt if I don't do that and I can't resist thsese voices. if I washed my hand 4times, nomatter I placed my soap toward right
siad perfectly and I haven't touched anything except soap. I have to do that 2more again because doing it 4time could hurt people I love.
I do this everytime I go bathroom. when I do this at night this is pretty annoy my family as it's really noisy. my mom yelled at meto be quite because she can not sleep as I doing this.I told her that I think I have OCD but she said I don't have it and it's just becauseI think I am etc. she didn't considered it seriously though I've told her twice. you know what it's very hard for me to tell her or anybodythat I have mental problem as I could be a become weirdo to them. I'm so scared any people would see me as a weirdo or mental.
I don't wanna bother her and don't wanna be annoying person to anybody. my faith is living without bothering anyone but this thing makes me crazy.
it's not all my smyptom. my life is just full of things like that.
if pencil lead touched on any place on my hand or body I have to put my erase on it even if there's no stain on it. if I don't erase itsomething bad would happen, my voices says. so I erase my hand,leg,arm so many times on school and I'm worrying mates would see what I'm doing.
and I have to move my monitor 5times at once if on monitor, any sound comes out. and if when I move it once I have to think aboutmy friend's brother and on twice, I have to image my friend's face and next her mother, her father.. or my family could get hurt my voice says.
my life is full of those things and there's so many symptoms to mention. they are all simillar with them liek I must place my goldfishe's feed on right side or bad thing would happen my voice says.
I can't listen to someband's music or the bands if their give me not good feelings.
my day is just full of those things and it's too hard. I just can't stand it for too long now I need help..
is there anyone who knows how do remove this or at least make it anybetter..?
HELP,,!