is this a form of hocd?

[insaniac]

High, I'm 15 and I've been attracted to girls my whole life. I had a gay experience when I was 13, I used to always stay at my friends and one night he jacked me off in the dark. I was displeased with my self but I realized that what happened happened and I'm not gay because I don't find dudes sexually attractive.  Anyway since then I've had my fair share of sexual experiences with girls which I've thoroughly enjoyed. Im not homophobic or feel like I'm in a closet but I keep having intrusive thoughts and fears. I feel anxious and kind of depressed, I don't wanna do anything I enjoy, I don't wanna hang out with friends, I just wanna stay in my own world. I've been in a relationship with a beautiful girl for about 6 months, lost my virginity with her a couple of weeks ago. I've been feeling down, fearful , having intrusive thoughts, depressed, anxious and unable to sleep. Ive also lost attraction to girls, I don't look at them like I used to, I don't masturbate or get urges, i don't anticipate sex with my girlfriend. I don't Enjoy life like I used to, I feel like I'm going insane.

[JGF25]

Here are a couple of articles for you to read:

https://www.google.com/webhp?sourceid=chrome-instant&rlz=1C1EODB_enUS525US545&ion=1&espv=2&ie=UTF-8#q=ten%20things%20fred%20penzel

www.brainphysics.com/yourenotgay.php

[123tushar07]

this is hocd, just another form of ocd, no need to fear , learn cognitive behaviour therapy, but remember one thing ocd changes its colour with time, so u have to get urself prepared for future, because it can come with another symptoms but the good thing is that cbt solves every type of ocd

[insaniac]

Thanks for getting back to me, I've been on tons of forums and haven't been able to seek help. I will try and seek some help.

[JGF25]

Hi there....yes OCD has taken over.  Unfortunately we can't change our past but it sure as hell will come back to bite us when we don't want it to.  How is your relationship to your parents?  Can you talk to them?  Because you need to see a child psychologist that specializes in OCD and teaches cognitive behavioral therapy.  If you don't feel like you can discuss this particular scenario, then you can just tell them you are having irrational anxious thoughts in general.  The reality is if you don't find men attractive and have no desire to be with a guy sexually, then you cannot possibly be gay.