ocd depression

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i wanted to know whats happend to me i was brave and hard working person but suddenly i lose my mind and my mind repeating one thing again and again thoughts non stop my body start shaking and lose motion and not able to do any kind of work because of des order my mind is doing dis order i dont know what to do i afraid to do any kind of work i am dead body no feeling at all one word is repeating you are able to do shifting duties and not able to do any kind of work i wanted to stop these thoughts but not possible even prozac is not working one this is my second month i am on prozac 40 mg still i have thoughts unwanted my mind is working day and night talking to me feeling helpless and hope less with out job how can i survive prozac is good medicen its sometime working some time not i have fear which is block in my mind i do my best to remove this fear but its not my hands i did nothing why God punishing me is depression is treatable its brain sickness or its my feelings which is wrong how can i control my self i fed up i wanted to die really please any body who recover from prozac . when i use prozac 40 mg my condition become more worse my thoughts become more negative and i am walking on roads day and night from 8 years i am on the roads i don't know where to go no exit no escape life is mean less to me i need urgent guidelines and not able to take decision about any kind of job i am stuck what to do is prozac will start work 60mg or 80 mg

[JGF25]

You definitely need to talk to your prescribing doctor.  If you are not getting relief from taking the medication after 2 months then either it is the wrong dose or simply the wrong medication.  Not every medication works well for every person and it may be that you have to try something else.  So please contact your doctor to discuss this.  Also, I don't know where you are from but if you have psychologists there that teach CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy), it is worth making an appointment.  

Also, you obviously have the internet and so try to order the book The OCD Workbook:  Your Guide to Breaking Free of OCD.  I think you will find it very helpful.  

Also, try some meditation videos.  You can find them on YouTube.  They will help relax you.  

[Life360]

Hi Asimon, you mentioned you were hard working and now this. What happened in your life at the time this came over you or was it a slow process over time. Do you have an idea of what triggered this change, Just think a bit about it what you think brought this on.

[asimonline666]

this is curse of God nothing lase or u can say test of life because of prozac make me rat i wanted to change my thoughts and doing many things to change my mind but its not possible this is life which God give me i dont know why my mind stop me to do things i am alone from long years cut of society talking to my self and blaming myself list has been lost no hope of recovery but its related to my work i mean depression i dont know what to do i am brave and faithful person where is my confidence really i become rat really rat a lion become rat its painful i am crying in my self but no solution docters always playing with me with my feelings its so sad and i wasted lot of money on my treatment really where is light i am in the dark  

[asimonline666]

thank you dear for your time and good advice but i have no hope of recovery i want another life i am stuck really stuck there are no road in desert alone helpless and hopless i lost every thing my job my feature ....................................................................................................................................................................................................

[Life360]

What are you blaming your self about?

[asimonline666]

i was working strate hours in airport but they make it shifting duties in shifting duties i lose my mind because in my whole life i dont have experience of shifting duties so my mind is repeating you have to go to work of u late they will make you terminate and my repeat it again and again again and again till i lost my health i resign from my work this way i destroy my feature i am blaming my self why i cant do shifting duty every one os doing shifting duty so why i am not this is blame myself since 8 years i never sleep well this shifting duty afraid me in night dreaming and its hold my mind and body i dont know how to come out you know any web site so i can remove my fear which is inside my brain i am not able to buy books about depression and ocd please any teachnique you know i fed up any solution please guide me i will be very thinkful to yu

[Life360]

I think you feel like a failure and you have high standards. I would bet that you have succeeded all your life and this time you failed and are having a hard time accepting it. Just go find a job you like, its not that difficult.
You should be thankful that jobs are available as i worked overseas for may years and most poor countries the people are just trying to find the right tree stick to bush their teeth with.
Just lighten up and go live your life. Youve got yourself all in a tizzy over something you have great control over.

[asimonline666]

i am able to do any kind of job because of Prozac i lose my mind i am afraid to much i don't have confidence

[Life360]

Well if you dont have confidence about yourself, no one is going to give it to you. Life takes work. A job takes work, keeping yourself fit takes work and even controling your thoughts takes work. If prozac if affecting you negatively then go talk to your doctor about this. You really have to get involved helping yourself.