picking

[seriouslystupid]

should i seek help? i don't like to make excuses like "oh my family is the reason i pick at my face...blablabla." i believe everyone has control over their own lives, especially the way they live it. knowing this, why haven't i stopped picking at my face huh? i'm 25...i started when i was 16 and it seriously needs to stop. i have a history of the classic eating disorders that haunted me throughout my teens until age 22 when i was done competing high level gymnastics and simply didn't have the energy to give a s* anymore. i picked then too. somehow i FIXED my eating problems (without anyone helping me despite my obvious cry for it) for what i feel is forever and now i'm anxious to do the same for my picking. the problem is, i don't really know how i did it. someone just needs to tell me that i need to stop because they know i am better than this and that really i am beautiful. i need someone to tell me this and be  honest by saying i look terrible. and trust me i look terrible...it's not just a body image distortion. i've researched a little and found support websites. i can't believe other people have this problem. i'm not sure if blogging like that will help me; i'd rather have the medical advice of a psychiatrist who doesn't want to shove pills down my throat. are you those people? tell you the truth i tried prozac once....i quit it because i thought i was going to gain weight and i was embarrassed for needing it.
well,  i'm a rambler. but i need someone to listen to my exhausting over analyzations. i made up that word by the way.

[JTGood]

Well I don't think you need a psychiatrist to shove pills down your throat, that's for sure!  I was diagnosed with OCD when I was 4 years old.  I used to have hours of different rituals, i.e. checking doors, touching things "the right way," counting, body dysmorphia (body image distortion), flicking light switches, lining things up "appropriately," all the classic OCD stuff.  Believe me you don't and shouldn't have to live with picking at yourself.  If I were to tell you to just stop picking, you would still do it because of the obsession to do it, and believe me, I know what it's like, I've been dealing with it for over 20 years.  Psychiatrists put me on all sorts of meds for it, but nothing worked and all I got was side effects.  I can feel what you're going through, and believe me, you're not alone in this world with what you're dealing with.  I found a natural, non-medication approach to treating my OCD, which has been gone for 8 months since I started this type of therapy.  When someone told me about it I thought it was BS.  But I gave it a try, took some natural supplements, and in about 3 weeks my OCD started dissipating, and now, is in complete remission.