zoloft for ocd/anxiety

[kriskam01]

hello

this is my first time on this site. i am just wondering if anyone out there has had these type symptoms and if zoloft worked for them. i have always been a little ocd growing up. washing hands and constanly worrying if i blew out the candles,unpluged the iron,turned the stove off. going back and forth checking a couple of times. it did get better with time until i recently had surgery in feb 2008 gallbladder and the ocd came back in rare form. i started having panic attacks and saw  my doc and he said it just takes time to get your body back to normal after surgery this was 2wks after. i gave it time and took a 1/2 xanex like my doc suggested i do.about 6wks after my surgery i had a refill of lexapro that i had and called it in due to the panic attacks getting worse. i took it the first night and woke up with horrible heat waves of nausea and headach it was awful. i got scared about the 4th day i took it when i went to the sink and saw a knife i was terrified i was going to hurt myself with it. i would never do anything like that so i knew it was the lexapro. i stopped it cold turkey after taking it for 6 days. i then started having horrible scary thoughts that i was going to lose it and go crazy and hurt someone. i was terrifed to bath my 2 kids that i might hurt them. it was bad. i then went back to the doctor and he said it was severe anxiety to i did what he said and just kept taking the xanex. well another couple of weeks went by and they were horrible the images and thoughts got worse and i was scared to be alone and at home alone with my kids. i then called the doc back and was sent to a counseler to manage these thoughts and anxiety. my counselor was awesome. she right off the bat diagnosed me with severe anxiety also and told me that i needed to be on an ssri after about the 4 or 5 visit because i just couldn't change my thought process it had just got to be all negative thoughts.

well today i have been on zoloft now since april 2008 and have seen some improvement. i still get up everyday asking myself "am i going to think like that today" and because i am on zoloft am i going to kill myself because i was soooo terrified after i read all the warnings that became one of my obessions thinking i was going to do something like that because i was taking it. i have taken lexapro and zoloft before and neither ever bothered me never had any kind of problems taking them are getting off them. for some reason this time i worried myself sick over and over my thoughts were horrible negative. my counselor did tell me that i was not depressed i would be fine on this medication just to stay positive. i did so good for a while then bam i started getting bad again. so i called my doc and they upped my zoloft to 75 mg.

i am just wondering if it is possible after taking zoloft for 3 1/2 months can you break out in an allergy and how do i know if the zoloft is working if i still wake up wondering if i am going to feel normal today. i just want my old self back before the surgery. can anyone relate to me. i was never diagnosed by a doctor about the ocd but i have read so much on the internet about it that i think i have it because of the thoughts and the worries and the obsessions.