Frustration

This is going to be a redundant post.  I am frustrated and I want to cry. Radiologist refuses to give me report from pelvic MRI until I speak with my doc.  And my doc is out of the office today.  I could only leave a message for him.  I feel sick to my stomach right now.

[Lev]

I am sorry they are putting you through the waiting game Lawyermom...kinda in the same position myself, so not a redundant post at all. Waiting sucks. *Hugs*

[Gatsby]

I feel your pain.  Here is my shoulder, cry away!!!  This is so trying.   I wish there was something more I could do for you.  I will let out a virtual scream AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!  Sending you a hug!
~Tascha

[lawyermom]

Thank you.  I am literally in tears right now, and I am the kind of person who hates crying about ANYTHING.  The secretary called and said that the doctor REFUSES to discuss any of these results over the phone.  I told her that the doctor was successfully scaring me and that I would be there first thing in the morning.  I don't even know why I am crying or stressed about it.

[Lev]

I'm trying to resist calling my docs and getting into it. I usually cry about everything, but this time I can't. I cannot do anything about whatever the results are now, so I'm sat here at work being totally disfunctional and feeling like I'm on another planet. Crying is not a bad thing Lawyermom...it's good to find a way to release the emotions and stress. Don't be too hard on yourself. Save that for the doctor tomorrow morning ;)

[Gatsby]

Don't worry, crying is a great stress reliever.  Just have a really good cry and try to get it all out.  I am here and listening.  Sending you a big hug and my virtual shoulder to cry on.
~Tascha

[lawyermom]

Thank you.  I can't even tell you how much your words mean to me.

[Bananie22]

I know it's so frustrating.  I personally would rather deal with whatever the issue is than sit around and wait.  It's like you're on "hold"...you don't know which way to go with your feelings.  I have been on "hold" a lot lately and truthfully it sucks.  What I've never understood is this...why can't they release the test results to the patient before the doc sees it?  It's our body...it's our "insides"...why the heck can't we see it?  It's like it's all a big secret?!  I've never really understood that...it can't be all the new Hepa laws right?  We need to protect our privacy from ourselves?  <sigh>  
You'll get your answer soon, and hopefully it's wonderful news and this will all seem like a bad dream.  In the meantime...vent away...there's a few here that can totally relate to what you're feeling.  Me included.

[fabmom4]

I am right there with you.  I like to think that I am a strong person, and I don't like anyone to see me break, but I have many tearful moments these days.  I can't usually keep a dry eye every time I visit this forum.  It doesn't help that our hormones are so crazy right now.  Hey, listen this is how pathetic I am lately.  Some dad came over to me and "bullied" me about my 6 yr. old son picking on his 9 yr.old son, and then preceded to tell me that other moms have  had a problem with him, as well.  My child is not a bully, and I am ALWAYS with him, so I see what he is doing, but do you think I would have stuck up for him or me.  Noooo, being the train wreck that I am these days, I put my sunglasses on and started to cry like a baby.  Hormones and stress...it can really suck!  Cry away, girlfriend!  I promise you, you are not alone!! :)

[milashka]

It kills me that it is our bodies that they are poking and infusing and messing with any which way they like - we surrender - and then they refuse to keep us informed until such and such a time. My lab does not release blood results to patients, so I have to call my doc again and again to get the numbers. Hey, it's MY BLOOD we're talking about. Grrrrr...I understand your frustration all too well. But it might not be bad news, just policy. Let us know!

[Gatsby]

I am right there with you, I'll take 2nd!
~Tascha

[fabmom4]

LM, I am with you, too.  You want to cry, I will cry with you.  You want to laugh, I can tell you some great stories.  You want to talk about how much it sucks to be a woman sometimes, I am all over that with you.  Whatever you need.  I am sure I speak for everyone here when I say that we are all here for you.  Women, who for the most part would never know each other if they bumped in to one another at the grocery store, all sharing this intimate, emotional, common bond.  What a blessing!

[lawyermom]

thank you.  You are correct.  I was just telling my husband that he better come with me tomorrow cause I feel like poking his eyes out, in a good ol' three stooges sort of way.  The crying helped.  I cried at three second intervals for about an hour and am ok now.  Looking foward to tomorrow's confontration.

[lawyermom]

Thank you so much for the support.  I will definitely let you know how everything goes, tomorrow.

[toothfairyp]

Tell that doctor you are going to SUE him!!! HAHAHAHA. HIPPA is BS!!! Get your results and find a doctor who has compassion for his patients. Tell him "don't make me get toothfairy here". I'll pull his teeth out...... ****POOF******

[dian07]

Okay...where's your appointment tomorrow.......I'll smack him around, you can poke his eyes out, and toothfairy will "poof"  his teeth out.....I hope he knows he should be scared!  Maybe your husband should go along for support... and gatsby and fabmom4 could cheer us on...or laugh or cry...whatever they felt like at the moment.
Sounds like fun to me.....bet we'd all feel better!
Together we will get the job done.
Peace. dian

[meridith]

Hi there,
I had the same thing happen to me a couple of weeks ago when the CA125 results came back.  They said they would not give these types of results over the phone, etc.  After crying and telling them I will NOT come in that I am changing dr.s they finally had the doctor call me and he said everything was normal etc.  And I said why would you do that to someone.  And he said HIPPA says he shouldn't give them out over the phone.  But I think it is the office visit fee he was going to charge for the results.  My opinion. Prayers coming your way.

[dian07]

I read the thoughts posted to this subject so far. Lawyermom, I might be wrong, but you seem to be a person who methodically approaches challenges.  You are competent, and you know it.
Right now you are being totally dismissed by an arrogant person who enjoys being in control....and he has control that belongs to you.
I would imagine, being dismissed in this manner has enraged you; I certainly would be.
I don't think crying would help me in this  situation: I think I would be trying not to explode or smack something.
After you get your information tomorrow a.m.; I would let him know what you think of his ability to relate to others in general, and remind him how important compassion is. He is clearly lacking in those skills.
Tomorrow will get here, believe it on not. You have no choice but to hang in there.
If posting helps, keep it up.....maybe we could take shifts talking with you to help you pass the time!
I am willing to take the first shift!!
I wish peace sould find you.   dian

[nursepatient]

Gosh, (are you gals in the United States?)  SOunds like it!  I am no revolutionary, but is there something wrong with patients knowing their own medical info wothout the filter of the medical opinion?  THe idea is, if patients got ahold of the bad news they would freak out.  Um, I'm sorry but seems NOT having the results causes a lot more stress!!! When I was in the hospital - same one at which I work - recovering from surgery I puttered out in the hall and logged onto the computer that night, read my operative report (weird reading a description of your insides), checked my lab results, looked at what meds I was allowed to have, etc.  I slept peacefully that night,with the help of the morphine pump.  Is there something wrong with that?????  I wish you all had the access I did/do.  Just remember, stand up for yourself.  Also, not ALL patients are like us ladies.  I would say MOST people would prefer not to know every ugly detail... Some people (especially docs) just don't know how to handle us.