I need help!!!

You are probably all so tired of hearing me be so negative and nervous...I can't get past this...today I went back for my checkup for my stomach problem and it turns out I have gallstones. so now instead of just worrying about my masses on my ovaries I have to worry about this...I started my first session of therapy...liked the therapist alot..I just can't shake this awful anxiety..surgery scheduled for march 26th and I am so so so so worked up..I don;t know how I am going to get through this..I have a friend who had surgery yesterday and she is so positive and upbeat and feeling pretty good she had 2 dermoids removed, ovary and partial tube. I envy her strength!! I wish had 1/4 of her courage..she had bikini cut and thankfully didnt need an onc/gyn and she is going home tomorrow. i am so crazy with the onc/gyn, the large size of my masses, the anesthia, the vertical incision and the whole works!!! please pray for me... I am not doing well...thanks again

[RavenLady]

Hi GMA,
     Deep breaths slowly...  What you are feeling is understandable given the overwhelming helping of stress you are dealing with!  Gallstones less than a month before your surgery!  Anyone would run out of bandwidth!  Matter of fact I will join you in a cyber Schriek!  EEEEEEIIOOOOUUURRRRAARRRRGGGGEEEEEYYYTTTOOOOeeeeee.  It's a small thing but a stress outlet GMA and you take advantage of any opportunity to release the stress you can!  Do not worry about doing it here as often as you need to!  We are here for you Cyster, you are going to get through this!  Believe!  MV

[EchoUK]

I can't say don't worry - everyone is different!  All I can add is that I had surgery (111c OVCA) on 29th January - the list of what was taken out included ovaries, omentum, womb, fallopian tubes,cervix and 'anything else I can do without' were my instructions to the surgeon! I am 68yrs old though!
I was in theatre 1.5 hours and woke up with a catheter,
saline drip,large tube into my abdomen, tube up my nose into my stomach, drip into my arm to release morphine with a device to press when needed.

Sounds scary doesn't it?  Well apart from not being allowed to eat for about three days the only discomfort was the tube up my nose which gave me a sore throat - I was allowed to drink milk so that helped. The first day after the op I wasn't allowed out of bed but the second day the stitches were uncovered and the catheter out,
saline drip out and I was up into a chair. Third day everything else was out and I was free to walk around.
Five days let out of hospital back for removal of stitches after seven days. Vertical scar. I had no pain, only discomfort, and didn't use any of the pain killers or sleeping tablets. Took a photo of my stitches (just got bored one day!) but have now done so every week as I am so amazed how fast the wound has healed. Back driving, gardening etc now. The surgical team and nurses are so professional just 'go with the flow'- it is a bit like a production line - once you are there you just get processed and don't really need to do much but be there.
I am sure that once you are in situe you will find that it isn't as bad as you fear. I kept in touch with someone much younger (37)in the next bed to me who has a very rare cancer that included a 10lb tumour - which had appeared in virtually two months - and was in pain but she is also out and about now so 'chin up' and good luck!
You can do it!!

[mermaid26]

You are certainly in my prayers! Know that you can make unlimited "withdrawals" of strength from your faith and trust in the Lord's "account" for you.  Boy, when it rains, it really pours for some of us.  But I can't help believe that ultimately all the hard luck we face is really the blessing in disguise.  Unfortunately this isn't usually revealed until later, upon deeper reflection down the road.   You used the word envy about your friend... personally my greatest sin to overcome.  Try to remember appearances are deceiving and if allowed to choose we probably wouldn't trade our trials after knowing everybody elses.  We are like the great characters in the Wizard of Oz and Winnie the Pooh, etc...We are braver than we think, stronger than we know, etc...I have faith that you already possess all the courage you'll ever need.  My prayer that is it revealed to you.  Blessings.

[gma718]

you are all so wonderful and I am so grateful to have stumbled across this website and meet all of you. I need to take it one day at a time.

[Stretch63]

that a girl one day at a time...hugs
I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much.
Mother Teresa

[hatgal]

I'm sorry I wasn't here for you yesterday - was really busy with work, etc.  I feel soooo bad for you and completely understand your anxiety.  Have you asked the doc for some anxiety meds?  Sounds to me as though you really need them - Klonopin to calm your nerves would be a huge help, believe me. You've got to have some medicinal help along with therapy to get you through this as we can't always do it alone. I also agree with the last post - "blessings" in disguise. After you are on the road to recovery and beyond that you will see that there is a reason for everything in our lives. I know it's hard to believe that right now.

Please get as much out of therapy as you can to figure out your fears so that you can begin to face them and overcome them, such as the surgery - it's frightening, yes, but something that needs to be done.

Please feel free to post to me anytime to talk as that is also therapeutic in itself.  Best, best to you.....