Surgery on Wednesday the 25th :(

LastWednesday I found out I had a solid mass on my ovary.  CA125 is 5.  I am only 37. One week later I will be in surgery having the mass and ovary removed.  My Dr. seems very optimistic.  No prior history of problems, no family history and a normal CA125.  Why is he so optimistic??  It seems like every post I have read on here does not have a bright shiny outcome.  It seems like more often than not the news is bad requiring additional surgeries.  I am so sick of everyone saying do not worry it will turn out to be nothing!!! Say it doesn't. I have two little kids I want to see grow up.  I am so incredibly depressed.  Have I just read all the bad posts???  Sorry I really need to vent.

[MickeyVicki]

Yes, it seems to me that you must have read all the bad posts!!   I think that perhaps it is your worries seeing things for you.  Several times I have thought that this forum is some sort of miracle machine.  Time and time again over this past year plus there have been women who posted symptoms and test results  that surely indicated cancer, only to learn they had benign masses when they had surgery.

You have to remember that while this is a new and scary situation for you, your doctor has seen this before, possibly many times.   What does your doctor have planned for your surgery?  My surgery was planned to start as a laparascopic procedure; if my doctor found cancer then it would have become a laparatomy with a debulking of cancer sites.   I had a complex cyst with solid components and thick walls, all signs of possible cancer, but the mass was benign.

[soniek]

hi there xyz..i just wanted to tell you good luck on your surgery..i am also having surgery(TAH) on the 26....i hope you have a fast speedy,and unpainful recovery..best wishes to you....sonie

[Gatsby]

Calm down, your fears are taking over.  I know it is easier said than done, but I have been down this road myself.  I had two masses one on each ovary.  My masses were actually each larger than my uterus.  Once the ovary is out, you will most likely never have another odd growth.  These ovaries can do strange things, but 99.8% of the time it is not cancer!!!!  You will wake from the surgery and you will see your beautiful kids.  I will say a prayer for you and be thinking of you tomorrow.  I had my surgery 12/21/05 and I am starting to feel better than I have in years!!  God is with you and so are we!
Tascha

[xyz123]

MickiVicki
Thanks for the uplifting words. My surgery is to start as a laproscopic and if it look suspicious then they will cut and do a "freeze section".  (I think).  I have always been an organized and informed person but I feel somewhat clueless with regards to Wednesday.  The nurse I spoke with at the drs office said if they were suspicious, based on the CA125 (was a 5) and the US, then an OB GYN oncologist would already be scheduled for the surgery.  But because one is not scheduled they are not suspicious.  My mass is 5cm by 3cm.  Is it always standard to remove the mass and the ovary?  I read that removing the ovary also incresaes the risk of Parkinsons by 50%.  Are the statistics in my favor of a solid mass being benign?  I am also scared about the general anesthesia.  Say I never wake up?  I am always going to be concerned that something will be growing in my body now.  This has happened too quickly for me to absorb.  I now I should be grateful that I have great doctors that do not just want to sit around and wait because that would be worse.  I have been so sick since last week I can barely eat.  Everytime I look at my children I cry afraid I may never see them grow up.

[xrayu2]

Hey!
I can feel your great worry and concern thru your posts.  I hope tomorrow you will be able to jump and dance and celebrate that your issues are nothing  to sweat abbut.  I, too, have small children and could not bear the thought of not being around to watch them grow up and be around for their needs. You are in my prayers that all turns out to good with you and that your worries are for no reason at all.  Good luck tomorrow and I will watch for your posts after surgery.

[jkkrum]

I'm right there with you!  My mind seems to be running away with myself about my laparotomy on Monday.  My main concern is all the scar tissue that I have due to a traumatic back surgery where they had to go through the back and front. I worry that the doctor is going to find a disaster area when they go in and she will have to remove lots of stuff.... :)
I will be praying for you for your quick recovery!  I hope you will have a lot of help with your kids after your surgery!   You deserve time to recoup and heal!  Take care and please update us as soon as your able!

[xyz123]

I truly want to thank you all who have reached out to me and offered support and prayers.  I means so much!!!!!  I will post after the surgery.  Good luck to all of you I will keep you all in my prayers...  I think I am going to be bad tonight and have a great Chicago pizza and some chocolate.

[hershe]

Good luck God will be with you all the way.Because you want to stick around be strong for your little ones!you know you are gonna be ok with lots of love and support